Keep This Secret | The Slump God

𓇽13.3

***2chapters left***
QOTN: What book of mine did you read or see first??? Does your feet smell good right now, don't lie? Is Ivy a crybaby fr or she just got a hard life? Is Jamal really crazy or is he pussywhipped? Is Stokes really over Ivy or just pretending?
Also pick a cover pls :) in the tittle is his baby pic ʕ •́؈•̀ ₎

I was out of work for a few days to recover. My mom had took me to the hospital they said it was pretty bad but gave me meds for the pain and said the bruising will go away on it's on but I'll have hyperpigmentation. So lucky me I get a constant reminder of getting my ass be by my ex boyfriend. Then they noticed the old scars on my side from the first time Jamal beat me up badly so yeah.

I argues with j saying I could prove she knew me and the bitch was using a fake number the whole time and now let the number go so I'd have to prove it was linked to her. Her Instagram account she has no pictures or just her and this other girl is saying j never owned the account so no matter what I'd look fucking stupid. I'm just hoping all of this Jamal shit is over. I'm back home.

Guess all it took was for me to be abused for my parents to decide to let their daughter come home. Bean purposely ran into Jamal and beat him up I heard that Mark jumped in until he found out why bean was fighting then he helped beat Jamal up. Then he messaged me saying I was wrong for breaking his homeboy heart and then went back to flirting and claiming me again.

I haven't heard from Stokeley at all. Jahseh has called and text me but I haven't answered because I know he'll ask me to visit or something and I can't. I can't lie and I don't want to be seen more than I have to. I deleted my Instagram yesterday. I went in and say Stokeley had went to visit Rah and see her daughter. Her daughter is cute but I just didn't want to see anyone happy or anything that reminds me of my life. I had nightmares of that exact day like my body already knew that it would happen. In the dreams it was Stokeley though.

I should of figured it wouldn't be him but when it happened it was like deja-vu. That why I tried to text him because he said if I ever felt like it was happening to let him know. All I got back was to stop playing on the phone.

I thought that I'd be having a good college experience but I don't know where I went wrong. Maybe it's all my karma for sleeping with a taken man. Damn this is some bad karma. Life keeps getting worse I got longer hours and my stuff at the hotel was stolen before I could go back to get it. My parents keep telling me to go to therapy but what the hell is it going to do.

Maybe if down the road I'm a mess because of it but I got over it before. I don't need therapy I need a whole new fucking life. Last year wasn't even close to being this bad. I was enjoying myself. Imagine me thirty and I'm with people telling college stories and then they're all laughing and my turn to speak comes. Well the first year was fun the second year I was a side bitch, got a boyfriend that bat me up ended up with the guy I was a side bitch for and he broke up with me, then my ex found me and beat my ass again and had a whole set up incase I called the police so I decided to drop out. Who's next? That's fucking terrible. I laughed to myself and went to clock back into work. I don't have an appetite so on my break I just sit in the back alone. It's been like that this week.

"Nigga I don't fucking know what it say" I said to Jah. It's been a few days since the random ass text from Ivy. She hasn't text back since then and he said she won't answer him. Then I checked today and she deleted her Instagram.

"Do it say help" he said.

"Help Stokeley Sike" I said trying to figure it out but that sound dumb.

"Maybe she was rushing what was you about to text her" he asked walking back to where he was.

"I don't know" I say putting the phone down.

"I know I leave for school in a day I wanted to see her one more time" I say.

"So you done pretending" he asked.

"It was obvious I missed and then when I messed up that game night and- I just want to see her one last time" I say repeating myself.

"You ask her brother if she good and where she been maybe you can do a pop up" he suggest. I sat down and ran a hand down my face.

"What if I pop up and she with some other nigga Jah" I say. I know she can do better then me but I don't want to see it. That sounds bad but I really can only see myself with her at this point and to have to see her with someone else, I just don't want to see that shit.

"I doubt she'll just be with some nigga"

"It happened before we stopped talking and she moved on fast like I was nothing"

"No because even with moving on she was still yours. I doubt now that y'all was actually together she can't move on super fast. I text her that night after she left it's the last time she answered me." He said eating his chips.

"What she say" I look over at him.

"Well she said she wasn't okay and she was pretending to be fine—" he said before I cut him off.

"How the fuck does that help me nigga telling me she doing bad was supposed to make me feel good" I snap looking away.

"No what I'm saying is like she wasnt okay being around you and seeing you with her. It was after you poured out your recent sex life to her. She wasn't over you and that wasn't that long ago so I know she not moved on. "

"Whatever nigga"

"Maybe I'll just ask her to meat me before I head back to talk" I say.

"Talk about what"

"I don't know. I want her back but I mean I'll take anything at this point. Just tell her I fucked up and if she don't really hate me or nothing I want to try again. All my ex's fully out the picture. No breaks to go fuck other bitches. No lies none of that this time" I say. She's gave me so many chances I'm sure I'm pushing my luck but I'd i have any chance at all I want to use it to see her at least one more time.

How y'all feeling? What y'all think finna happen in these next 2 chapters?