Keep This Secret | The Slump God

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"I love you and you not just running away from that" He says pushing my head back into the wall before letting me go.

"Stokeley please let me leave" I cry. My head hurts he's been grabbing me up and yelling at me. I would of never expected this.

"Why are you so sure you want to leave? What the fuck went wrong? Well I know what went wrong but I'm working on myself. I'm trying for you and you keep trying to run away from me. I'm a idiot yes, but from the moment we first started all this shit I felt like it was supposed to me me and you" he said healing at me.

"Not like this Stokeley" I say he started walking closer to
Me pinning my arms above my head. He laid his forehead against mine.

"P—"

"When the fuck you fall asleep" he says. "Damn whole time thinking you was up"

I scrunched my face up confused. I then felt a movement beside me. I opened my eyes seeing Stokeley on his phone. My legs were over him.

"When'd you get here" I ask. I don't remember even falling asleep.

"After your class you told me you wanted some ice cream. I got and came here we was talking and you fell asleep. It wasn't a long nap because I'm just now realizing you was sleep" he says leaning forward to kiss my head.

She backed away from me slightly before letting me kiss her. They was she been acting recently not sitting right with me. I just don't want to force shit out of her and it blow up. I keep telling myself if it's something going on she'll tell me when she's comfortable but I don't want her start drifting away from me because of it.

"What'd you dream about, me" I smiled.

"Yeah"

"Oh for real. What was we doing. You was sleep long enough for no wet dream"

"We— we were talking" she said lowly.

"You good"

"Yeah, I'm goin a go use her bathroom" she said as she got off the bed and went into her bathroom.

I grabbed her phone. I don't think I've ever felt like she lying to me or hiding shit until now. I feel guilty as I'm about to go through her phone but somethings not right. I haven't done shit to her that I know of. I know we wasn't with each other as much but I'm over here now and she's just being funny with me.

She don't have nothing crazy in her hidden or deleted pictures. There's no messages in here. No contacts I'd find suspicious or calls. She either deleting shit or good as hiding it.

Not that I'm jumping straight to her cheating on me but you don't just act different. We've had test and shit before and she didn't act this different. She came back out the bathroom wiping her face and sniffling.

"What happened" I say quickly getting up and going over to her.

"I don't want to talk about it just yet" she said sighing.

"Is it something I did to you." I asked. The connection right now just felt awkward and unfamiliar between us.

"No, you're fine don't worry" she said.

"I can't just not worry, I feel like some shit is happening with us and I don't even know what it is"

"I'm sorry, it's me I know and I'm sorry. I just don't know what's going on. Maybe my brain is just overwhelmed right now" she said and went and laid down in her bed facing the wall. She threw Stokey bear off the bed and grabbed the blankets covering up. I just watched. I went and picked the bear up sitting it in a chair that way if she gets up she don't trip over it.

"Did you want me to leave?"

"No, I thought you were staying here tonight" she turned to look at me.

"Well I know you not feeling like yourself I don't want to force myself into your presence—"

"You're fine. Come lay down I'm going back to sleep." She said facing the wall again. Our whole interaction just don't feel right to me. I went ahead and got in the bed and laid next to her keeping our distance.

"Did you want blankets" she asked turning and laying on my shoulder and placing my hand in hers.

"No im good"

"You're okay right" she asked looking at me.

"Yeah. Just worried about you"

"I'm fine, I promise"

"Don't lie to me"

"I'll be fine. It's nothing major I told you I'm probably just overwhelmed. I just— How was your day"

"You don't have to tell me if you not ready yet"

"Can you tell me about you and your cousin, y'all many adventures"she asked.

"Maybe when you fully up or something"

"Oh"

"Get some sleep" I said kissing her. She kissed back and kissed my hand after.

"Okay... I love you"

"I love you too" she smiled and kissed my chin.

I feel like she's trying to ease my mind of what's going on but until I know I'm worried. She's doing some shit behind my back and I don't know what. That, or she is just hiding something from me.

Kind of short I'm sleepy... BUTTTT HOW YOU FEELING??????