My Somewhat Forbidden Love

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"Ya I know ma.. what's all this about, c'mon you're scaring me." I force a small laugh.

"I just want the best for you."

"I know."

"That's why I don't want you talking to that boy anymore."

My heart drops.

"What.. He hasn't even done anything!"

"Yet. Madison. He hasn't done anything yet and I'll be damned if he does anything to hurt you."

"Mother I'm not a child I know what's morally right and wrong and I know Nathan isn't anything like you describe him.. You make him sound like a monster when all he is, is a caring human being just like you and I. He's no different just because he lives far."

"You don't know him Madison!"

"You don't either!"

I see her eyes widen in disbelieve of my tone. I bite back before I say something I'd regret and then I would definitely be on her shit list. I calm my attitude and breathe in.

"Mom, I know you're worried, and I know you're really on the fence about this-"

"On the fence? I don't want to even be near it." she says as she rolls her eyes.

If I could, I'd snatch em out.

"Please just hear me out. I'm trying to talk to you but you always interject me and never understand my point. You want me to be responsible and mature yet you treat me like a helpless child."

"I'm sorry. I'll listen, go on." she folds her arms.

"It's been a long few years.. and with dad hardly ever being around I know it's tough on you raising three teens on your own. But you raised us well ma, we know right from wrong and we know what we are doing. I understand you want us to stay protected and in your care, but sooner or later we'd have to learn from our mistakes on our own. And if we don't make the wrong mistakes, them how will we learn what's right?"

She sighs and I look at her intently. I'm honestly speaking the truth here. I get she wants us to be protected, but she thinks that we aren't ever allowed to experience the damage. But how should we appreciate the beauty in life if we've never seen the bad?

"I'm sorry Madison. I get where you're coming from, but you need to understand that I don't know this man and I don't know his intentions with my daughter and it scares the hell out of me because I can already see you're in love. Your eyes shining, your smile glowing, he's the one for you. But I never trust easily and I'm not handing my daughter over like that to just anyone."

"I understand."

"If you want a real relationship with him, I need to speak to him first."

"Through Skype?"

"No, when is he coming to New York?"

"Whoa ma we never even spoke about him coming here. It's probably not even that serious between him and I."

"Sure. Well then the next time you two Skype, put me on. I want to speak to him."

I look at her with warning full eyes.

"Don't worry I won't bite him. Most I'll do is interrogate the hell out of him until I find out his true identity."

I face palm myself.

"Mother he's all real. This is as real as is gets ya."

"Fine. Now finish your homework. I love you tons okay? Never ever forget it. Everything I do for you three is to make sure you guys have the best."

She walks over and kisses my head.

"Te amo mi Chiquita."

"I love you too Ma."

She walks out the door and closes it gently. As I jump on my bed I sigh a deep sigh.

Damn I must have some HUGE balls if I spoke to my mother like that. But I think the only reason she didn't bitch slap me was because maybe just maybe, I'm right about this.

Jesus, when I said I wouldn't go down without a fight for Nathan, I meant it! This is way harder than it seems but nothing is going to stop me from being with the one I truly love.

Cheesy, I know.

She said something about him coming to New York. Could that ever happen?

Maybe, possibly. I've never been on a plane before. And I'm just starting to get my mom to warm up to Nathan, so I'm not going to push it by asking for a plane ticket to Ireland.

"Hey ma um you see I want to travel the world. I've never been on a plane and maybe this is a great start. I'd like to go some place out of this country. I'm tired of America. How about Europe ya? Perfect scenery, different people, my Boyfriend. OH! And the accents over there sure are to die for am I right?!"

Jesus I'm soundin more and more like Nate.

One day though... I'll meet my love.

Someday.