My Somewhat Forbidden Love

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The next morning, Luna comes to my house to pick me up for school.

"Hey Mrs.Rosario, is Maddie upstairs?"

"Yes, but she's sick so she's going to stay home today."

"Can I go up and see her?"

"Um, she's probably sleeping. Maybe stop by tomorrow."

"I'm righ here." I say as I walk down the stairs.

My mother glares at me and I ignore it. I already covered myself with make up so she has no reason to be upset. She's the one lying over here.

"Hey Maddie! You coming to school?"

I look at my mother and she gives me a warning full look.

"Nah not today, I'm having massive cramps and back pain so imma just stay home and study."

"Alrighty, I'll stop by after school with Yasmin and Jessie and we can bring some food. Can we sleep over Mrs.Rosario? We have loads to plan for my birthday." she winks at me.

My mother sighs in annoyance and agrees. I give Luna a look telling her I'll explain later, and she easily catches on.

"Alrighty thanks, see you after class Maddie. I'll pick up your assignments."

"Thanks sweets. See you later."

As she leaves, I turn to go up to my room and see Donavin.

"Maddie come here for a sec."

I walk into his room and instantly feel annoyed. There's clothes on the floor, messy plates and cups all over. And of course his bed isn't made.

"What?" He asks, looking at my expression.

"Your room... is a shit hole."

"It's not that bad jeez. But anyways come here, it's about Jessie."

"What about her?" I ask as I start to pick up the clothes from the floor putting them into the laundry basket.

I can't help it. Maybe I'm OCD.

"I really think she's hot. And I wanted to take her on a date."

"Ya so."

"So.. can you put in a good word for me..?"

"Let me ask you this, what is it you like about her."

I gesture him to get off the bed, and he does so.

"I like her ass, it's like so perfect and rounded. And those racks! Oh my god I just want to..-"

"Let me stop you righ there. Is that all you notice about her? Do you not see her smile, or her dimples. Or the way her eyes light up when she talks about something she's passionate about."

He nods his head no.

"That's what I thought."

I finish making his bed and grab the dirty plates.

"When you learn to appreciate Jessie, then I'll give in a good word. But for now, learn to like her personality. Not just her ass." I laugh and I walk downstairs.

As I'm washing the dishes, I imagine Nathan coming up from behind me holding me by the waist gently. Him probably whispering somethin cheeky in my ear, causing me to blush and smile.

"Madison."

I jump up as I hear my mother's voice. She always finds a way to stop me and my thoughts. I turn around and see her looking at me.

"Ya?"

"Can we talk."

"I don't really have a choice, so sure."

She sighs and sits down. I turn off the water putting the dishes away.

"You know why I'm doing this..don't you?"

"Mhm."

"I'm trying to protect you."

"I don't see from what, but alrigh."

"Madison, we both know I'm right."

"No.. you think you're right, and if I say otherwise I'll probably get backhanded. So I'm obligated to agree."

"Madison, I was just angry."

"It's been said and done before. Not like I'm not used to it."

Her eyes flash with pain.

"I'm sorry, but I didn't know how else to get the point across. I don't know what it's going to take to get rid of that boy from your mind. He's just using you."

This is interesting. I'm dying to hear more.

"Oh really? How so? Please mother I really want to know why you despise Nathan so much. Having that you've never even spoken to him, or given him the time of day."

"He's in Europe and you're here. You two just won't last. He's going to just want sex."

The same bullshit excuse. She's using it because she has no other one to use. She knows Nathan isn't a bad guy, but something in her is just telling her to think the opposite. I need to tell her what's on my mind, I can't keep letting her talk shit about him as if he's nothing. If I get another slap I'll survive, but I have to tell her how I feel.

"Alrigh, in no way do I mean to disrespect you. But you said not to lie righ? So here's how it is. Nathan and I have known each other a year and a half. We have skyped and stay in contact nonstop. We both focus on our studies as well as have bright futures ahead. I've offered millions of times for you to speak to Nathan. You even promised to speak to him for me, and get to know him.. But you didn't even give him the chance. Day after day I asked you. I begged you to speak to him. He was waitin on talking to you as well, he is respectful, humorous, charming, and you missed out on all of that because you're too blind to see that he is my mate."

Her eyes widen at that last word. I ignore it and continue.

"He's been nothing but there for me, even when I've done him wrong. He's shown nothing but love to me when I've needed him most. And every, single, day.. the feelings I have just keep getting stronger. I love you, but good luck trying to take him away from me. I can't wonder, what if. I can't leave the only person that I feel comfortable with as I am, the one I'm in love with. And if you can't accept that, I apologize. But that's not changing a thing. I want your blessing.. that would mean the world to me. But that seems out of the question, and I'm sorry you feel that way."

"Tell me something, have you seen him face to face?"

"That doesn't matter."

"For all you know, he could be someone completely different."

"That, I believe isn't true. I told him I was 17 rather than 19. If he was hiding somethin, he would have used that chance to tell me."

"You don't know him." She spats.

"No mother, you don't know him. I know who I fell in love with, even if he isn't what he looks like. I can't tell people enough, that I love blindly. And that's the best kind of love. Try it sometime, it works."

She stands up and heads to her room. I breathe in and take a seat as I close my eyes.

That was bad out. I shouldn't have Said that.

Fuck.

I feel like I'm makin a court case every time I have to prove my love for Nathan. When the hell will this case be dismissed??

I walk up to my room and try to study, but I'm too upset about my mother. I want her blessing, I want her to accept Nathan. He doesn't deserve to have to go through all this, he deserves much better.

I can't help but think that.. Maybe I don't even deserve him.