My Somewhat Forbidden Love

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A few hours pass by before I hear the door unlock downstairs. I sit up quickly waiting as I hear his footsteps come my way.

"Madison." He takes a seat beside me, holding my cheek with his left hand.

"Where'd you go?" I ask.

"I went to go talk to Alexander. He explained the situation to me, and to be quite honest, I've known this guy for quite some time now and I don't think he would ever do something like this."

My eyes widen in disbelief as he speaks.

"... I confronted him about the whole thing and he was real open and straight forward telling me that you guys weren't together and he never laid a hand on you. At first I was unsure because of what you told me, but again I don't know Madison.. He doesn't even come off that way."

I'm absolutely speechless. Alexander completely lied to Nathan making me come off as the crazy one for saying he's done such a thing. What kind of fucked up game is he playing??

"You can't be serious.." I say, as I feel my heart sinking deeper into my core.

"He's lying to you Nathan ... He hurt me badly and I don't even know where to begin with the mental damage he's caused, not to mention the physical damage he's..-"

"Madison are you sure it was him? I mean I asked him if you two were together and he said..-"

"Yes I'm aware that he flat out lied to you and you jumped to agree with him."

I pull away from his grasp and get off the bed.

"Madison don't act like that, I'm just unsure of what's true."

"Unsure? Do you honestly think I would lie about something like this? Don't you understand how this right here makes me feel?"

I can't hold it together and my eyes betray me, leaving me to cry.

He stands up to hug me but I step away. At this point in our relationship if he won't believe me about something as serious as this, what else is there he won't be by my side on?

This was a mistake.

I go to the bathroom and wipe the mascara from my face. I'm a delusional mess apparently. I quickly pick up my hair and go back to the room putting on my grey hoodie and boots.

Nathan looks at me with confusion and what seems to look like .. Fear?

"Madison where are you going?"

"Home."

I put my makeup bag and the rest of my things, zipping up the suitcase.

"You can't just leave because of this like, I'm just trying to understand what's going on here Madison, you can't be mad because of this."

I love Nathan with all my heart and probably even more. But I can't just accept the fact Alexander lied to him and let this cycle continue on. It's poison.

"I can't be mad at the fact you're taking Alexander's word over mine? He abused me far too much and I thought after he left it would be over. But no, I come to find out he's your best fuckin mate and he lies to you making me look crazy for accusing him of such a thing." I breathe in and rub my temples out of frustration.

"Madison, it's not like that..-"

"Save it. I understand."

I grab my suitcase and start to head out the door.

"I'm not lettin you go out at almost 2 in the morning alone alright. You don't even know where the hell you're going."

"I'll find my way."

"Madison come on like.."

I walk down stairs and I hear him follow me.

"Madison."

I ignore him and reach to open the front door. Right before I turn the knob he grabs me by the waist and throws me over his shoulder.

"Put me down!" I yell.

"I know how you get when you cry alrigh you're sleepy and it's late out and I don't want anything to happen to you. So you're stayin here for tonight. If you still decide to leave in the morning, I'll take you myself, but your safety comes first alrigh."

He carries me up the stairs throwing me onto the bed gently.

As much as I would love to leave right this moment, something in me is telling me to stay.

"Madison I love you alrigh, but I just wanted to hear both sides to the story. Don't get me wrong, I left here fumin. But when I saw how chill he was speakin it made me assume he wouldn't do somethin like that. I'm sorry if I made you feel like you were the one lyin."

I look down taking in all he's saying. He had the right to hear both sides, I never told him about Alexander until tonight so this must have been a lot for him to take in as well. But I don't know if I can still handle Alexander being around. I'm scared as hell.

He seems to read the fear in my eyes and lifts my chin up.

"Maddie, you're with me now alrigh and it's never my intention to hurt you or put you in any danger. I just want you to be happy and I swear I'm tryin my best to keep you in that state. I'm not goin to let anything happen to you. I hate seein you like this, I'm sorry."

I can sense him being genuine and I immediately feel like pulling him and giving him a kiss and telling him it's okay, but I somehow feel torn.

But Sadly enough, I need him. He's my love, and I can't walk away if he's willing to continue.

"It's fine." I whisper weakly.

He moves a strand of hair behind my ear and kisses my cheek as I close my eyes.

"I love you, you know that righ..?"

"I know, I'm sorry for doubting it."

He pulls me by the waist hugging me tightly as his chin rest on my head.

"Did you really want to leave?" He asks.

His voice sounded weak, nearly broken.

"No, but I felt hurt and I didn't want to stay here like that." I admit.

"I don't try to hurt you."

"I know."

He pulls away and stares at my eyes. At this point I'm numb to any sense of emotion other than my love for Nathan. I can tell he does really care about me, probably more than I gave him credit for. I love this man and I honestly believe him when he says those three words to me.

He leans in giving me a kiss, and something about this kiss was different. It had such want and passion that flamed as we touched. More than sparks flew, fireworks more like.

The same need I had, he had as well. I tug on his shirt as he and I lay back, without losing any contact. He pulls down my pants as I take off my hoodie and I begin to kiss his neck, unbuckling his belt with my hands.

This felt right, I didn't have any sense of hesitation and neither did he. I wanted him. We wanted each other.

"Are you sure." He stops.

"Positive." I say.

I pull him in for another kiss and with that, this night seemed to be unforgettable..

Egh sorry for the very late update. I won't make an excuse for it.. BUT but... The ending of the book is close to its ending point and soon enough there will be more to come. Hope you enjoyed the chapter and understand both characters points of view. What would you have done if you were Madison? And yes Nathan is so cute for keeping her sane and putting her in her place ;)

Enjoy...

~N