Bunny - Kenjorine - Transition

Chapter 14

Kenny holds my head to his chest. "No, she wanted to leave, and you wouldn't let her. Unless you want to lose your job I recommend that you drop this. Now."

I can't see Kenny's expression, but he sounds pissed off.

"Fine. You two can leave. I never would've thought you would fall for the poor kid, Marjorine."

Kenny walks me out of the class and shuts the door. That's when he lets go of my head so that he can look at my face. 

"Are you okay?"

I WAS doing fine until he asked me that. It's like that question unleashed a flood of bottled-up emotions that I had been holding back for so long. I start to cry.

"Oh... Mar..." He looks genuinely concerned. 

I get a rush of guilt. He cares about me, but I'm just following what Cartman told me to do... I don't deserve his care.

I push off of him and run down the hall, ducking into a storage closet.

I sit down and hug my knees, letting out all my tears. I'm lucky that it was between classes. The hallways were loud so no one could hear me cry.

The door quickly opens and then shuts again, Kenny rushes in so that no one would see him.

"Mar..."

I can't run from him again. I need to admit it to myself, I need him right now.

I fall into him and sob.

"H-He tried to-"

He pets the back of my head as I cry. "I know, Mar. I know... It's okay now... I got you..."

I sniffle and snork into him. It was the ugliest cry ever. But he stayed. He embraced me the whole time.

I calm down after a few minutes, he continues to pet my hair. "Are you feeling better?"

I sniffle, "Yeah..."

"I'm sorry I didn't get there sooner. Did he do anything?"

"No... He tried to give me a shoulder massage, and I tried to get away but I couldn't, that's when you came in... Thank you, Kenny..."

"Of course. I'm here for you."

The guilt comes back.

"Kenny..." I push off of him and sit back against the wall.

"What's wrong?"

"I don't think you should care about me. I think you should go be with someone else, focus on anyone but me."

"Why?"

"I'm not real. Well, I am. But not for the reasons you think."

"That doesn't make any sense."

I sigh and look up at him.

"Kenny, it's a long story."

"I'm willing to listen."

"Okay..."

I take a deep breath, my hands are shaking. 

"So... I wasn't born a girl..."

"Oh..."

"I have known for a while that I was in the wrong body. Someone offered me an opportunity to be a girl for a little while so I had to take it. I have never felt happier than I feel as Marjorine. It felt like I could finally be myself. I'm not who you think I am, but also, I am... I am a girl, but this has been a front. I feel real but I'm not."

"Mar... You are real. You are a girl. You're the girl I have been hanging out with, one of the only girls I could connect with. Just because you weren't born in this body doesn't mean it isn't you."

"Kenny..."

"You are a good person. I don't know very much about Transgender stuff but... I know that if you are a girl deep down, then you're a girl. You're a girl to me, but most importantly you're a girl to yourself. Sorry if this doesn't make sense."

I wipe my face with my sleeve. "No, everything you're saying is perfect..."

"Oh, good."

"But... There's one more thing."

"What is it?"

I take off my wig. I know he recognizes me at that moment because his eyes widen.

"I uh, I've been deceiving you for a while... I'm sorry..."

"Butters..?"

"..."

"You didn't move away?"

"Eric said I needed to dress up as a girl to distract you from Nicole. He said I needed to distract you or else he would use the blackmail he has on me."

"That asshole..."

"Kenny? I'm sorry..."

"... This whole time..."