I walk Karen back to her house on the outskirts of town. She gives me the warm smile that I've missed more than I could possibly describe before she disappears into her house for the night.
As I walk back to my apartment I get lost in my thoughts. Everything is so complicated now. I guess I really didn't have much time to process what I saw at midnight.
It wouldn't be fair for me to be upset that Kenny kissed another person. We aren't together and I kissed someone else as well. I honestly hate myself for being so upset over this. It's making me feel like a hypocrite. He's allowed to move on and find love just like I am.
It still hurts though.
Worst part is, I'm not sure how to stop these feelings of jealousy and resentment. I feel so guilty for thinking like this.
I want him to be hung up on me. I want him to fight to get me back. I don't want him to move on.
These are all hard truths I'm learning about myself as I walk through the cold winter night. It's 2am. No one is outside at this time. It's just me in what feels like a deserted world.
Me and my terrible thoughts.
That sickly feeling of jealousy won't leave my stomach. All I can hope is that with time, it will go away and I'll be able to see him moving on without feeling dizzy.
This feeling is so intense though. I want it to stop. How do I stop this?
My mind spins more.
Distractions. That's what I need. I need something, or... someone to distract me from him.
It's unfair for me to be mad at him for moving on, so I should focus on moving on myself.
I know it's wrong but...
If I can't get this feeling to go away, I'll force it away.
I will force myself to move on.
Even if it means being selfish.
Anything. Anything at all would be better than this terrible sickness I feel.
I reach my apartment after what feels like an eternity.
When I plug in my phone I notice a text message. A couple actually.
Karen: Just making sure you got home safe!
Marjorine: safe and sound! Thanks!
After I respond to that, I respond to the other text I had gotten. This one was sent at midnight.
Bradley: Happy New Year, Marj!
Marjorine: Happy new year!
Marjorine: Can't wait to see you again, when are you back in town?
Anything at all. I'll do anything to move on.
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Bunny - Kenjorine - Transition
FanfictionButters Stotch has been bullied his whole life. One day one of his bullies, Eric Cartman, makes him dress up as a girl to seduce a boy named Kenny McCormick. Butter had been questioning gender identity so this was a golden opportunity. As Marjorine...
