Book 2 Chapter 27

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I walk Karen back to her house on the outskirts of town. She gives me the warm smile that I've missed more than I could possibly describe before she disappears into her house for the night.

As I walk back to my apartment I get lost in my thoughts. Everything is so complicated now. I guess I really didn't have much time to process what I saw at midnight.

It wouldn't be fair for me to be upset that Kenny kissed another person. We aren't together and I kissed someone else as well. I honestly hate myself for being so upset over this. It's making me feel like a hypocrite. He's allowed to move on and find love just like I am.

It still hurts though.

Worst part is, I'm not sure how to stop these feelings of jealousy and resentment. I feel so guilty for thinking like this.

I want him to be hung up on me. I want him to fight to get me back. I don't want him to move on.

These are all hard truths I'm learning about myself as I walk through the cold winter night. It's 2am. No one is outside at this time. It's just me in what feels like a deserted world.

Me and my terrible thoughts.

That sickly feeling of jealousy won't leave my stomach. All I can hope is that with time, it will go away and I'll be able to see him moving on without feeling dizzy.

This feeling is so intense though. I want it to stop. How do I stop this?

My mind spins more.

Distractions. That's what I need. I need something, or... someone to distract me from him.

It's unfair for me to be mad at him for moving on, so I should focus on moving on myself.

I know it's wrong but...

If I can't get this feeling to go away, I'll force it away.

I will force myself to move on.

Even if it means being selfish.

Anything. Anything at all would be better than this terrible sickness I feel.

I reach my apartment after what feels like an eternity.

When I plug in my phone I notice a text message. A couple actually.

Karen: Just making sure you got home safe!

Marjorine: safe and sound! Thanks!

After I respond to that, I respond to the other text I had gotten. This one was sent at midnight.

Bradley: Happy New Year, Marj!

Marjorine: Happy new year!

Marjorine: Can't wait to see you again, when are you back in town?

Anything at all. I'll do anything to move on.

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