We sit in silence for a few moments. I don't know how to respond to any of this.
"Can I try that?" I point to his hand.
"My cigarette?"
"Yeah."
"Sure... this one's almost out so I'll get a new one." He reaches into his coat pocket and pulls out a box and a lighter. After putting out his current cigarette, he pulls a new one out.
He hands it to me and I put it between my lips, holding it in place with my teeth. I watch as he clicks his lighter a few times until it lights.
He scoots a little closer to me and uses his other hand to shield the flame from any wind as he lights the end of the cigarette.
I can see his long eyelashes. They're blonde at the base. I can also see his light freckles.
He looks so good in this light it's actually insane.
My heart is beating so fast.
"Okay." He flips the lid on his lighter back over. "Now breathe in slowly and gently. You'll hurt yourself if you go too fast."
I inhale as slowly as I can. "Ack!" I cough a bunch of smoke.
"See?" He takes the cigarette from my mouth. "You went too fast."
He brings it to his lips and very slowly inhales. He holds it in and passes the cigarette to me.
I try again, my eyes water a bit but I manage to get some into my lungs. I feel a dizzy adrenaline rush fill my head as I exhale. "Ah... that's nice..."
Kenny nods. "It really is." He takes the cigarette back.
"Kenny, why did you lie about having a girlfriend if you still love me?"
He exhales smoke. "I'm scared."
"Scared?" I take the cigarette back.
"Yeah... it hurt so much when we broke up. What if it happens again? I don't want to lose you a second time."
We pass the cigarette back and forth in silence a few times.
"You know that I love you too, right?" I look into his eyes.
"Yeah." He averts his gaze.
"I'm sorry for ending it the way I did."
"I understand why you did it. Karen needed to be a priority until her mental health got better and us being together was getting in the way."
"I'm sorry about Bradley too."
"It's okay. I rebounded too."
Another few moments of silence.
The sun is almost gone now.
"I know It's scary. I'm a little scared too but... I want to be with you, Kenny. I really miss you and... no one else makes me feel this way." I grab his wrist and bring his hand to my chest so he can feel how fast my heart is pounding.
He chuckles and brings my hand to his chest. His is beating just as fast as mine is.
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Bunny - Kenjorine - Transition
FanfictionButters Stotch has been bullied his whole life. One day one of his bullies, Eric Cartman, makes him dress up as a girl to seduce a boy named Kenny McCormick. Butter had been questioning gender identity so this was a golden opportunity. As Marjorine...
