Almost Is Never Enough || Book I

Chapter 13

Almost Is Never Enough

Chapter 13

You woke up to the daylight peeking through the windows. You were sleeping on Jay's chest, his arm around you. You smiled at his sleeping figure until his eyes blinked open. "Morning beautiful," Jay said as he woke up, giving you a kiss on your forehead.

Your eyes slowly drifted over his naked body, shock setting in. "Oh my god...Jay? Did we...?" You asked him, unable to finish the question.

Jay looked down your naked body, eyes widening in shock. He nodded subtly. He put his head in his hands. "...I cant do anything right. Why the hell do I screw everything up?" He asked.

"Jay, it's not your fault...we were both drunk," you said.

"It still doesn't give me the right to do that to you." Jay said, noticing the used condom on the floor.

"You didn't do anything to me, Jay," you whispered.

He looked at you, a painful expression on his face. "Then what about that?" He said, pointing to the floor. "I did do something to you, and I really shouldn't have."

"I agreed to it, Jay." You whispered.

"But you were drunk! We both were! It means that you never really wanted to do that." He said, a little teary eyed.

"If I hadn't wanted to, it wouldn't matter if I was drunk or not. I wouldn't have let you," you said, straddling his waist.

He nodded his head, looking away from your eyes and down at the floor. "...okay." He bit his lip as you straddled his waist.

You almost forgot you both didn't have clothes on. He put his hands on your waist and kissed your lips, smiling into it. You pulled away. "SHIT." You said.

"What's wrong?!" Jay asked, concerned.

"I-I told Nath I wouldn't do that..." You said.

Jay smacked his forehead. "Well how are we supposed to tell him? Or are we even telling him at all?" He asked. "I don't think he would be able to take it."

"I don't know, Jay! I just hope he didn't hear us," you said.

"Okay, just for now, we have to keep quiet about this, nobody can know." Jay looked at you, a little sad. His first time with you, you both were drunk and were not allowed to tell anybody. It hurt him.

You decided to try and lighten the mood. "Did you enjoy it?" You asked, sticking your tongue out.

"Absolutely." Jay said with a smile.

"I remember doing this a lot," you smirked, pushing him against the bed and kissing him.

"Well I remember doing this," Jay said with a smirk. He went to your neck and left a trail of gentle kisses.

You let out small moan. "God Jay..." You whispered.

"You know what else I remember?" He asked, his hot breath against your lips. He went down to your collarbone and sucked on it. You closed your eyes, panting, trying not to moan. He left your collarbone, kissing up to your jawline. He then kissed your lips passionately.

"Fuck Jay..." You whispered. He kissed you again, sliding his tongue in and touching yours. You two started to make out. "Jay...shouldn't we put clothes on first?" You whispered.

"Only if you want to..." He said with a smirk.

"I think it'd be too tempting if we didn't," you whispered.

He nodded his head, smiling cheekily. "I'm gonna go take a shower." Jay said.

"Don't stay there too long," you whispered, winking. "Then I'll have to wonder what you're doing in there."