Almost Is Never Enough || Book I

Chapter 118

Almost Is Never Enough

Chapter 118

Jay saw you lying on the hospital bed and his heart broke even further, knowing that he had done this to you.

"Lovely...I'm so sorry I did this to you," Jay whispered, holding your hand and sitting at your bedside.

"I never even realized how much I was hurting you..." He said, kissing your hand, "how can I hurt the one I love so much, that she's fighting for her life every week? I thought I was the one who was protecting you...I guess I wasn't. I was only killing you," Jay said, wiping away tears. "It's almost sunrise... I wonder if you still want to spend it with me."

You remained unresponsive. "You probably don't. I don't blame you either. Why would you want to be around someone who's hurting you?" Jay said. "Maybe I should be the one running out in the middle of the night...you should be happy again, like you were with Nath. I can't stand knowing I did this to you. God I'm so so sorry lovely," Jay cried. He sobbed into your hand, kissing it a few times.

Everyone in the room was absolutely heartbroken watching this. "It can't end like this..." Nareesha whispered.

"It has to..." Jay whispered back, not looking away from you.

"No it won't. You've made her the happiest person that I have ever seen. I don't care what the doctor said, he doesn't know you two like we do. He doesn't feel the spark in the room when you two are with each other. She needs you Jay, just like you need her," Nareesha said.

"Nareesha, I've tried everything! She just keeps hurting herself. I can't stand knowing that I'm doing this to her..." Jay said, tears falling down his face.

"Did you listen to anything I just said? She NEEDS you Jay. The doctor doesn't even know the full situation. He could be doing it off of a guess," Nareesha said.

"Well I'm going to tell her what the doctor suggests when she wakes up," Jay said.

"You won't lose her because she won't ever let you go," Nareesha said.

Jay just sighed and crawled into bed with you, as everyone else left the room. He began humming "Asylum" by John Legend. He held your hand and kissed it as he continued humming the song.

He held you close and watched the sunrise through the window, kissing you gently when it did. "I wish you could see how beautiful the sunrise is. It's almost as beautiful as you," Jay said. "I'm sorry...nothing is your fault." Jay then kissed your lips and caressed your cheek.

"How could someone so beautiful be in so much pain?" Jay said. "Lovely, I wish you'd talk to me...I don't want another coma...I was so miserable for those three weeks. But if I have to let you go because I'm the one who hurt you...I'll understand," Jay said. He clutched your thin frame against him, looking at your gaunt face. "Please just talk to me. I want to hear your amazing voice," Jay said.

Your eyes fluttered open, as your vision focused, seeing Jay in front of you. "I-I'm not dead?" You mumbled, "or are you dead too?"

"You're alive lovely!" Jay said as he hugged you. "I thought I lost you for good."

"Why am I alive?" You asked, confused and a bit disappointed.

"What...?" Jay said. "You wanted to be dead?"

"Yeah I did..." You mumbled, "I hate hurting you, letting you down. I should be dead right now."

"Lovely...please don't think like that," Jay said, tears threatening to escape his eyes again.

"Well I already am," you said, "why can't you just let me die for once?"

"...because I'm in love with you..." Jay said, a tear leaving his eye.