30 minute rule || Yoonmin

«88» Left him alone

The rest of the night didn't go as planned, Jimin had ran off to their shared room and Yoongi didn't run after him like he should of. He continued to finish Jimin's meals but he kept thinking about how he should be running after Jimin. After he finished all the meals for Jimin he put them in the fridge and headed down towards the bedroom where Jimin was. He opened the door to see Jimin laying down in bed looking like he was asleep.

He just sighed and stood in the doorway looking at his small boyfriend, he was on his side of the bed facing away from Yoongi's side, he had his knees up to his chest and the small bunny up to his face. He wasn't asleep yet but he kept his eyes closed so that Yoongi would think he was sleeping. 

« I'm so sorry. » Yoongi closed the bedroom door unbuttoning his pants and sliding them off, he also took off his shirt and reached over grabbing a sweatshirt that he was planning on leaving for Jimin, he still wanted the younger to have something that would calm him down a little even if Jimin was upset with him, just having something familiar to him will calm him a little.

« I'm a bad boyfriend. » He looked down at Jimin who heard him as he spoke, he kept his back towards Yoongi and he felt the bed dipping when his boyfriend went to go climb in right next to him. He wasn't mad, yes he was sad but he didn't want Yoongi and him to fight so he just continued to pretend to be asleep.

« I know this is hard for you and I messed up while trying to do something for you. I shouldn't use that as an excuse and I know you're asleep but I just want to say, I'm sorry. » Jimin felt so bad because it wasn't his fault, it was his own because he was sick, he ran off like that because he hated how Yoongi had to prepare to be able to go back to work, he hated how he couldn't find meals to eat on his own and hated how he needed help.

He hated the way his stomach clenched as he looked at food and definitely hated the way it got in the way of his relationships, this disorder has ruined so many things. His parents didn't even want to stick around to see him grow up and it killed his best friend and he just wished things were easier and he didn't want his boyfriend to apologize for things that he didn't do.

« I finished the meals for you to eat for the next couple of days, I know yo- »

« Thank you. » Jimin turned around so that he could face Yoongi but he kept his eyes closed as his voice came out in a whisper but he grabbed a hold of the older to let him know that he wasn't at fault for any of this. He didn't want Yoongi to feel bad or sorry for what was going on.

« Jimin? » He looked down at the fluffy haired boy who was clinging onto him tightly, he didn't know he was awake and if he did he might of stayed quiet.

« Please stop blaming yourself for my disorder, it's not your fault and I don't like that you have to get back to work but I get it. You have a job and you shouldn't worry about taking care of me. » Jimin looked up and rested his hand on Yoongi's side.

« I'm in charge of you, you really shouldn't be out of the hospital so I need to make sure you stay healthy and get on a good path. » Jimin frowned at his words and just sighed, he knew that this was going to hurt Yoongi, and he knew that this was going to completely wreck him.

« I know, maybe this was a mistake, I don't want to hurt you. » Jimin then started to think that getting out of the hospital was a complete mistake and he should go back where they will force him back into recovery even though he has really been doing really well outside of it.

« Mistake? Babe I thought that we agreed that this was going to be better for you. What happened to that? » Yoongi sat up in bed looking down at Jimin and soon Jimin followed him and sat up right next to him.

« I just don't want you to worry about me and I can already see how wrong this could go. You were just trying to help me and prepare my food but all I did was let my disordered brain take over my thoughts. » Jimin reached forward and took a hold of Yoongi's hands, he knew he was struggling and he knew what he was doing was hurting the both of them. He couldn't stand the way he got mad or upset just because a voice in his head told him these stupid horrible things.

« You're my boyfriend, that means that whatever you're going through I'll help you through it. » He smiled but it soon dropped when tears started to well up in Jimin's eyes. He didn't want to make him cry but it seems like that's just what he did because he's been pretending like all of this is okay even when it's not.

« Stop crying my sweet little thing. »

« I'm not crying, well I am... why are you the best boyfriend ever. » Yoongi just smiled more and let tears filled up his eyes as well.

« S-shut up, I love you. » They both started to cry even more as they both leaned forward and engulfed each other in a tight hug.

« I love you to, now let's get to sleep, y-you have work tomorrow. » Jimin really didn't want to see Yoongi go to work but he knew it had to be done.

The two fell asleep in each others arms, Jimin was holding the small bunny stuffed animal that he kind of grew to like. Yoongi had his arm around Jimin's waist as he held him close. Yoongi had to wake up early in the morning and he was afraid that his alarm  would wake him up and he just knew if he woke up he wouldn't want to leave him.

So when his alarm rang he quickly turned it off and looked down to Jimin who still had the bunny stuffed animal still in his hands which made him smile. The stuffed animal was his old roommate Seokjin's however he didn't take it with him so it was now Jimin's. Climbing out of bed was the hardest thing to do because he didn't want to wake Jimin up and at the same time he wanted to just cuddle Jimin all day long like he has been doing for the past couple days and now he would have to go back to work and face Dr. Lee, and Dr. Su the two people he just wished would disappear.

He got dressed in his black dress pants, his purple button up silk shirt that he tuck into his pants, he also slipped on his dress shoes. He tried to get ready very quietly in fear that he was going to wake Jiminie up. He grabbed his bag that consisted of his laptop and other school supplies before he headed out the door into the cold darkness.

He wanted to run back inside and hug his boyfriend so bad but he had to go and make some money for the two of them. He was just worried about leaving Jimin home alone all day long. But he couldn't express his worry once he gets to work because Dr. Lee would tell him to bring him back or tell him to get a babysitter which would just make everything worse between the two of them and make Jimin feel like Yoongi didn't trust him to eat.

He soon got to work and just like normal he clocked in and said hello to the nice lady working at the front desk, she confessed how much she missed seeing him but their exchange was quick as he entered the elevator to head up to the place he works. He was nervous to see Dr. Lee after all the trouble he had caused. 

He made it to the floor, back to all the memories and it was the first time that he walked threw the cafeteria and didn't see Jimin, didn't see him waiting patiently to get his vitals checked and a little part of him missed it. He went all the way back to the staff room, to the same locker where he would always set his stuff. Everything seemed to be normal, no one was looking at him and he didn't see Dr. Lee or Dr. Su yet so he was kind of happy about that.

He made it through the morning without seeing the two doctors which was weird since he expected to have a small meeting with Dr. Lee. He was on his way to group therapy when he finally got stopped by one of his coworkers who told him he was needed in Dr. Lee's office and that he would be taking over his therapy that day. That got him a little nervous since he was gone for long time and he hasn't seen his boss in a couple days. He heard two voices in the office which made him wonder and think because he knew one of the voices belonged to Dr. Lee however there was a female voice that was talking but he walked in to see who it was.

« Hello Yoongi, Long time no see. There's someone you should meet. »