30 minute rule || Yoonmin

«180» Panic

For dinner Ha-na and Yoongi were on it, no one was really that hungry since they had snacks and people ate a little while everyone received their gifts. So they made some rice and dumplings. Everyone else was just sitting in the living room waiting for dinner and they were lost in some sort of conversation that Jimin joined in on which surprised even himself that he even allowed himself to do that.

« You guys don't have to eat but those who do it's ready. » Ha-na walked back into the living room with a fresh glass of wine and another cup filled with ice water before she walked over to her wife. She handed Su-ji the water and plopped down right next to her leaning over her wife. Jin got up and wanted food as well as Jae so they headed over towards the kitchen to help themselves.

« Jiminie you want some? » Yoongi walked into the room to ask, Jimin all of a sudden felt like everyone's eyes were on him. At this point everyone knew about Jimin's eating disorder because he mentioned it at their wedding in front of everyone. All the eyes on him made him panic a little and Yoongi could see the look in his eyes and just sighed knowing he just shouldn't have asked that.

« Jimin I'll go with you, let's go I'm starving. » Su-ji broke the small amount of silence, she knew that this was weird everyone knew he had eating issues so food mentioned in front of him to everyone else was weird and everyone was waiting for him to say no just so they could tell him he needs to eat. She didn't want that to happen and that can really hurt Jimin so she walked over to him and reached her hand out for him to take.

He took her hand and followed her into the kitchen area, he wanted to know if they were talking about him but the conversations from the living room were now muffled. Jimin just looked down as he went into the kitchen area seeing Jin and Jae who were eating off their bowls and laughing at their conversation. Yoongi noticed the way Jimin wrapped his arms around his own waist as he just stood there watching Su-ji grab some food and join the conversation.

« Baby you want some? » Yoongi asked after he served Su-ji, the younger just shook his head and leaned against one of the counters looking down hearing everyone talk around him.

*tw panic attack*

He felt like he was being buried with everyone's conversations, he felt like he couldn't even hear Yoongi, he saw his lips moving but other than that he felt as if he blacked out. That's when he started to panic, he gripped the counter before anyone could notice that he was starting to panic even more. His head was fuzzy but Yoongi quickly took notice because he just asked the younger a question and Jimin didn't hear nor answer so he knew something was wrong. He walked forward and grabbed Jimin before he collapsed into the older's arms.

« You're okay, shhh it's okay let's get you away. » He pressed Jimin's head to his chest so that Jimin could hear his calm heart beat. He also ran his fingers through the older's hair before he turned to look at everyone else in the kitchen. Jae and Jin went silent, fear in their eyes but Yoongi just gave them a look, everything went silent even in the living room.

Jimin was crying as Yoongi walked him over into their bedroom, worry filled everyone's eyes. He sat the younger down on the bed, Jimin was still breathing fast as he clenched his chest. He had panic attacks before but he hasn't had one in forever so he was scared but Yoongi was there to calm him down like he always was.

« Take a deep breath babe. » Yoongi then started to gently rub up and down the younger's back feeling how hard his heart was beating just from touching his back. Jimin actually calmed down faster then he usually would, it was weird and he didn't even know why he would be having a panic attack.

« Need to talk about anything? It's been so long since you've had a panic attack. » Yoongi also noticed this and he just wanted to know what was going through the younger's head to cause him to panic like that randomly.

« I don't know, umm I just I think it's because everyone out there knows I have a problem with food or at least I did. Even though I'm better now when food is mentioned everyone looks at me like to see if I'll eat. It's like they're waiting for me to decline the food so they can swoop in and be a hero or something. It always happens so I'm really scared that everyone is doing that. I just hate all that attention and I'm better now I can eat food without that guilt over my head all the time and I want people to know that. » He explained, he hated the way people acted around others who recovered from an eating disorder. He was afraid everyone out there was wondering if he was going to eat or if they need to step in and pretend they can fix him.

« You don't need to worry okay? They are just worried about you. That's probably it so please don't stress about it. I can go talk to them and tell the things they shouldn't say or do around you if you want. I know some things can be harmful to your mental health so I can do that if you want. » Jimin just nodded, he knew that would have to be done and he didn't want to do it. Besides Yoongi will know how to talk to everyone so he felt okay with this option.

« Okay. » As soon as Jimin gave his answer they heard a knock at the door, they both looked over before yoongi went to go see who it was. He opened the door wide enough for Jimin to see who it was and it was his mom standing there with a small smile.

« C-Can I speak to him? » She asked looking up at Yoongi, she didn't know if he was still struggling or needed space so she asked. She watched at how Yoongi looked back to Jimin who just nodded and brought his knees up to his chest.

« Mom. » Jimin sighed, Yoongi had left to go speak with everyone, the door was closed and his mom was now walking towards the bed. She sat down and turned towards him before speaking.

« You know I used to have panic attacks too, they are so scary but the way Yoongi took care of it made me happy. He made sure you were safe and got you away from everything and that is special. » She didn't know much about Yoongi, she met him on their wedding day however just seeing the way he took care of her son was wonderful. She knew that her son had married the right person and that alone warmed her heart.

« He's really amazing. » Jimin nodded thinking back to when they met, their first conversation was after Jimin had a panic attack and Yoongi saved him. He didn't appreciate it at the time however now he really looks back at that time and wants to thank Yoongi for doing that.

« When you told me you were getting married I was terrified that I wasn't going to like the person. However Yoongi is special and I like him and I really approve of this relationship. I know it doesn't matter what I think but I wouldn't want to see with you anyone else. » That alone could make Jimin cry, he never got to tell his mother things and just hearing that she approved of his relationship was really great.

« Don't cry, it's okay. » Jimin scooted over to the edge of the bed where his mom was sitting, tears in his eyes, he placed his feet on the floor and hugged his mother tightly.

« Thank you mom, for approving of my relationship and being in my life again. » He feels like he always says that, he loves that his mom is in his life again but it was true and he needed his mom.

« It's what moms are supposed to do darling. » Jimin went in for a hug catching his mom off guard but she hugged him back letting him try to dry his tears a little bit.

« Thank you, really. » They pulled away from the hug, Jimin watched his mom shake her head and stand up. She wiped her hands on her pants before reaching her hand out for the younger to take it.

« We got a party to get back to. » She announced, making Jimin laugh and take her hand walking back out where everyone was now eating and watching some random drama on the tv and everything seemed to be okay.