Yoongi hasn't been getting alot of sleep the rest of the week, he would hold Jimin until he fell asleep but he found it hard to close his eyes and drift off. He was so stressed and felt so much anxiety about this new house and whether or not they would like the house. He felt like if they didn't like the house then he failed, he realizes that they could not even get the house because someone put an offer in first which also stresses him out.
He didn't tell Jimin about what he was feeling because he didn't want to worry him so he kept his lack of sleep to himself which was something he shouldn't have done. As Saturday got closer the more stress he felt but Jimin didn't catch on to it but he knew Yoongi might have been having a rough time at work.
When Saturday came he left Jimin to finish getting ready in the bathroom as he went out to make some breakfast for the both of them. Jimin was slowly getting better enough to not have to follow a meal plan system so he took advantage and made a big breakfast for them. As he did this he decided to call Ha-na to express what he was feeling and if it was normal to feel this was before getting a house.
« Hey Yoon, why are you calling? Do you need to reschedule? » She wasn't nervous but she was afraid Yoongi would back out because she got it and was in his shoes before moving in with her wife.
« No I'm just so stressed and worried, Jimin seems fine but why am I feeling this way? » He asked, running his fingers through his hair as he cooked some eggs on the stove.
« That's normal Yoon, It's normal to feel stressed and anxious before getting a house. I felt it as well, it's new and sometimes moves can be a lot on someone so don't worry okay? » Her words seemed to make him feel better, he let out a sigh and started to pour out some batter for pancakes.
« I can't believe I'm nervous to move, I've wanted to move with Jimin for such a long time so I thought I'd be feeling excited not this. » She got it because she felt the same thing, sometimes moving in with the person you love can be scary but he won't be feeling this way once they put the offer up.
« I know, I felt the same thing when me and Su-ji moved in together and I even felt that before our wedding and it's normal. I thought I would be so excited to marry Su-ji but I was so anxious and stressed but as I walked down that Isle I knew she was the one and all that went away. Same with the house and once you put in that offer you'll start to feel excited. » Yoongi started to feel the pressure lifting off of his shoulders at her words because she was right and now he felt more ready for this day.
« I do want to move in with Jimin, I do want to marry him but this is so much too much that I can't handle it. I want to just give up. » As soon as he said that he turned around and Jimin was standing there with a jacket in his hand. He froze and didn't even know what to say, he didn't even know the context of why he would say that but it hurt his heart so bad to hear those words.
Before Yoonngi could do anything Jimin ran back to the bedroom slamming the door. Ha-na was still talking trying to make him feel better and was surprised when Yoongi hung up leaving her mid sentence. She tried to call him back but he never picked up because he knew what he said was bad if taken out of context and he wanted to clear things up.
« Baby unlock the door please. » Yoongi's voice was soft and that almost made Jimin open the door but he pouted as he sat on the bed. He couldn't believe his fiancé would say something like that and got him thinking about Yoongi and if he actually wanted to do this.
« I need to talk to you, about what I said and about what I've been feeling. »
« Baby we made a promise that we had to share our feelings with each other and I didn't do that but I want to do that now » He didn't see Jimin so he couldn't see the tears welling in his eyes and couldn't tell him what has been going on most of the week. He took a step back when the door opened fast and wide revealing Jimin.
« Come here. » He knew he hurt Jimin's feelings so he grabbed Jimin's wrist and pulled him into his body to hug him tightly.
« If you don't want to do this then we don't have to, if it's too much for you then tell me because I'm actually excited. » He mumbled against the older's chest, this made Yoongi shake his head.
« I want to marry you, if I don't my life would be miserable. I want to move with you because it strengthens our relationship even more and I really want that but I'm anxious. I was on the phone with Ha-na because this past week I've gotten very little sleep because I'm so nervous to see this house because this could be the house where we start our lives and that makes me anxious. » Jimin pouted because Yoongi should have told him, if he just said this in the beginning they could have gone through this together and this moment wouldn't need to happen today.
« You don't think I'm stressed and anxious? I'm fucking terrified but I know that this feeling will pass I know that I want to do this and I'm not letting my feelings control my life. My therapist taught me how to deal with my feelings and I'm actually doing it. I'm not calling a friend and telling them that this is too much and I can't do it. I worked so hard to feel happy and healthy and now you tell Ha-na you can't handle this. » Jimin leaned back to look up at Yoongi, he thought he would be able to do what he had been doing but apparently he gives up. He quits at things and he doesn't want to be with someone with that attitude.
« You're right, I was trying to give up. I wanted her to maybe say the house was already sold because I can't control what I feel and it gets really hard for me sometimes. I don't want you to think I give up easily because I need to be here to help you through things. » He felt so ashamed and overwhelmed because Jimin was right and if he was too much in his head and in his feelings then he can't be there for Jimin when he really needs him.
« Don't give up on this, on us. We are doing this together. » Jimin brushed Yoongi's hair off of his forehead going up on his toes to give him a kiss on the forehead, leaving another kiss on the tip of his nose before looking back at him.
« I want to marry you so fucking bad. » This made Jimin giggle and he gasped when Yoongi grabbed his waist and picked him up, he wrapped his legs around the older's waist with a huge smile on his face.
« Me too, my husband has a good ring to it. » They both couldn't stop smiling and they kissed again before Jimin was set down.
« My husband Jimin, god that sounds so good. » He tilted his head back and that gave Jimin the chance to kiss his neck quickly leaving a couple pecks before they locked eyes again.
« Now let's go eat breakfast and go. » Jimin winked at him and they went into the kitchen to finish cooking and eat before going on with the rest of their day.
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30 minute rule || Yoonmin
Fanfiction"Your dick's small." Park Jimin is the depressed teen who was forced into a clinic with suicidal thoughts constantly surrounding him an eating disorder closely following. His mind was a battle field and the 30 minute bathroom rule was pissing him of...
