« Why did I get nervous all of a sudden. » Jimin nervously laughs as he messed with Yoongi's shirt, pulling and picking at it leaving the room in silence for a little before one of them speaks again.
« Don't be, honestly this might be good for you. » Yoongi gave Jimin a reassuring squeeze on his shoulder trying to let him know that this was going to be good news.
« I know you are trying to make feel less nervous but I'm still scared. » His voice was wavering a little and Yoongi knew that he was going to be nervous until he knew what he had to say. He was hoping that telling Jimin would make him happy, or maybe a little scared he couldn't really tell.
« I'm sorry, but when I got into work Dr. Lee introduced me to your aunt. » At this moment Yoongi felt Jimin freeze in his arms and he didn't really know what to do. Jimin didn't think that his aunt would come back to the clinic and now that she has he gets worried.
« What did she say? I swear to god if she wants me to go back, I can't go back, I feel like she only cares when I'm not locked away in a prison. » Jimin's breath started to become heavy and fast he started to panic a little bit until Yoongi started to talk more.
« No, no, no, nothing like that baby please don't panic. She told me that she'd keep your apartment up so that you can go by and pick up the stuff you want to keep. So maybe on one of my days off we can run by and do that. » This just made Jimin panic a little bit more because he did not want to go back to the place where he used to live. He also didn't want Yoongi to see what he used to live in, what he did to himself. He was more scared about Yoongi seeing rather then going back.
« No it's okay tell her that she can get rid of the apartment, I don't need anything from there. » Yoongi could tell by his tone of voice that he was scared of something, he didn't know why but he knew going back to where he used to live might be hard seeing the way he used to live.
« You should go back, just to see how you used to live and how you do now maybe even take some things to remind you of the times where you were okay. » Jimin was really thinking because he was scared but also he did want to see, he was curious because he knew he was a different person before he met Yoongi.
He was cold, heartless, his tone of voice was different. Now he was more fragile and he feels more affected by peoples words, he even relied on Yoongi more then he thought he would have to. He was mean to everyone who looked at him, he said rude things especially to Yoongi.
« Maybe it is a good idea to go back... I'm just scared. » Jimin reached around trying to find Yoongi's hand and when he did he tightly held on because he didn't want to tell him the reason why he was scared but he knew he's eventually tell him.
« Well of course it will be scary, you might feel as though you would relapse or maybe even get back into the thought pattern you had. » The younger of the two closes his eyes tightly and holds onto Yoongi's hand tightly because he knew that he would have to tell the truth.
« I'm not even scared about that because I have you and I know you will help me so I won't relapse, I just... I'm scared that if you see the way I used to live then you'll see me different. » He really didn't want to tell Yoongi why he didn't want to go back but for some reason he knew he should let him know because he knew one thing about relationships and that was to not lie and be open with each other.
« You really think that I'll see you different? I saw you when you entered the clinic and we also talked before we started to date or flirt or whatever we were doing, you were cold and you said some mean things to me but you changed, you don't act like that anymore. I don't care how you used to live because I know that you don't live like that now and I know you will never go back to that, so please don't be scared. I'm right here. » Now Jimin wanted to cry because he was so scared that he would see him different but now he was just feeling like a complete idiot.
« I'm sorry, I know that I seem stupid. » Jimin stopped his sentence because he knew what was coming and the way Yoongi looked at him he knew to just stop right there.
« You're not stupid you never are I hate when you talk down to yourself like that I hate when you do that. » He hated that Jimin couldn't see how beautiful and wonderful he was, he hated how he couldn't see that and he didn't want to get frustrated with him because he knew that he would have to be patient.
« I'm sorry I'll stop saying that. We can go to my apartment, I'm ready to see my past, to face it and move on. » He also remembered some of the stuff that was in his old place and he kind of wanted to get it before everything got thrown out.
« I'm glad, I hope you really are ready because you know I won't push you to do anything you don't want to do so if you truly do want to do it then let's go, I'll find some time and take you over there. » Yoongi gave the younger a kiss on the forehead before snuggling back up tightly against Jimin.
« I love you, thank you for everything, if I didn't have you I'd probably would of gave up a long time ago. » And there was Jimin on the verge of tears again because he was truly thankful for his birthday.
« I love you too and I'm glad I met you, I'm happy that you allowed me to help you. » He gave Jimin another kiss this one on the side of his head right by his eye.
« Now let's get some rest, okay? » Yoongi speaks once again but he only got a head nod as a response as they both started to drift off into sleep.
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30 minute rule || Yoonmin
Fanfiction"Your dick's small." Park Jimin is the depressed teen who was forced into a clinic with suicidal thoughts constantly surrounding him an eating disorder closely following. His mind was a battle field and the 30 minute bathroom rule was pissing him of...
