« Do you want vanilla or chocolate pudding? » Jimin was sat on the counter as Yoongi had the fridge door open looking at all the food he had in it naming it off to the younger to see what they were going to eat.
« Neither. » Jimin answered, there wasn't that much in the fridge that Jimin wanted to eat however he was the one to suggest they eat something before doing anything else so it wasn't like he could complain.
« How about... I make some ramen and rice cakes? I'll even make us some tea? » Yoongi closes the fridge door and turns to Jimin who was looking down at the floor in front of him. He was kicking his legs and hitting the bottom cupboards with his heels.
« Okay, that sounds okay. » Jimin's mouth was watering a little bit. He hasn't had rice cakes in a long time, he was kind of excited. His stomach started to rumble a little and for once he found the feeling uncomfortable. He shifted in his spot, this was the first time he didn't like the feeling of being hungry. He looked down at the ground and Yoongi looked over after grabbing the pack of rice cakes and setting them on the counter.
« Baby? What's wrong? » He glanced over quickly towards Jimin but then grabbed a pan from the cabinet, putting it down on the stove so he could begin to make the food.
« Sorry, nothing um... I'll go wait out in the living room. » He jumped off the counter and began to walk around and out of the room. He didn't even let Yoongi speak a word, he just flopped on the couch grabbing the remote and silently turning the tv on.
Yoongi tried not to think about what just happened, Jimin seemed to not be in the best mood but he just assumed that he was still a little worried about eating so he just let the younger walk away. That was the case, Jimin didn't want to be around food while it was being made. It was just something he hated, the smell that made his stomach rumble was the worst feeling ever.
He began to flip through the channels trying to find something interesting to watch however there wasn't anything he wanted to watch so he turned it to netflix. As Jimin was struggling a little Yoongi was in the kitchen boiling water and making some juice for the two in the meantime.
Some time passed and Jimin was 30 minutes into a netflix movie as Yoongi prepared the plates for the both of them. He of course put a little on Jimin's plate, he was always afraid to overwhelm Jimin so he made Jimin's meal on a small plate. He held Jimin's plate and a cup of juice, he set it down on the coffee table in front of Jimin, giving him a kiss on the forehead before walking back to get his own plate.
« Thank you Yoonie. » Jimin said as Yoongi sat down right next to him. He leaned into the older as he set his plate on his lap.
« No problem babe. » He took a sip of his juice before setting it down, he kissed the younger's nose.
Jimin got done before Yoongi did which was something that usually happened. Jimin got up and walked into the kitchen, he dumped the rest of the food he didn't eat in the trash, he didn't want Yoongi to see because he knew he would get mad that he didn't eat everything. He felt sick to his stomach and hated it because he got full over just a little bit of food and Yoongi didn't even put that much on his plate. He closed his eyes trying to hold back tears before walking back out into the living room as if nothing happened.
He just looked towards Yoongi who was still eating and watching what was playing on the tv. He just watched him, he didn't say a word or even move one little bit but he just looked at his boyfriend eat and enjoy the show, something he never was able to do. All he wanted was to be able to enjoy a meal like that with no care in the world.
He was snapped out of this state he was in when Yoongi turned his head and spoke. First Jimin wasn't listening, he was just zoning out and now he was looking down at the floor near the bottom of the couch.
« Jimin?... Jimin? » Yoongi tried once more to get the younger's attention but Jimin seemed freaked out which worried him a little bit. He set his almost empty plate of food down on the coffee table before standing up and walking up to Jimin who finally snapped out of his trance once he felt a touch on his shoulder.
« S-sorry, I'm just tired. » Jimin shook his head and squeezed his eyes shut, he felt arms wrap around his shoulders but he couldn't get himself to do the same and wrap his own arms around Yoongi's waist.
« Listen if you're nervous about the weekend and what we're doing you should tell me, I know how you feel and I'm here for you. » Yoongi brushed his palm against Jimin's cheek to try and make him look up at him but he never moved from his position.
« No, well I know you won't judge me and I know that in the end everything will be okay but I think I'm getting worse and I'm afraid I'm gonna have to go back to that place and I'm so scared. » A tear fell from Jimin's eye however he quickly wiped it away, pushing Yoongi a little bit away so he could do so.
« Baby, if you feel this way then we need to do something, I will never force you to get help but I think we might need to get you a therapist, maybe you should look into that. » That's something Jimin hated thinking about, he didn't want a therapist and he was hoping that after he left the hospital he wouldn't need extra help other than Yoongi. He just wants Yoongi to help him no one else, he doesn't need anyone else but him.
« No, please I don't want a therapist, I don't need one I'm fine. » He tried to forget what he had just said because he regrets it, he didn't want help and he didn't need it no matter how bad he gets he doesn't need a therapist.
« Well Jimin if you feel like you're getting worse then you should get some help. Again I can't force you into this and I can't force you to get help but trust me it will help you feel better and maybe we'll even set you up with a nutritionist but baby you're going to need to do something. » He was just stating facts and Jimin knew that but he was scared to have to do all that by himself, Yoongi was going to help but he wanted someone to hold his hand the whole way.
« I'm scared Yoongi, what if I never get better? What if something happens to me? »
« Stop talking like that, I will never let anything happen to you okay? You are not allowed to leave me and you love me so I know you won't leave me. » He grabbed a hold of Jimin's face again trying to make eye contact with him and let him know that he's there.
« We are going to go to your apartment, get some of your stuff then we'll get you some help, of course only if you want it. » Jimin tries to nod his head but it was hard to do when Yoongi was grabbing his face so hard.
« I think I do want it, there's a lot of things I need to talk about that I can't with you. » He needed to talk through some things that he was too nervous to say to Yoongi. Like the fact that he has been dating Yoongi for a long time but he's too uncomfortable to do stuff with him. Like how he's tried really hard to get in the mood or whatever you would call it. He hated how he's been making Yoongi wait, Yoongi's a normal guy who's in a relationship yet he can't do anything normal couples do like have sex because of Jimin and he felt like he was a problem and he hated feeling like that so maybe he should talk about it with someone no matter how weirdn he feels about that topic.
« That's why you should get a therapist because I know you don't want to talk to me about some things however you do need to talk to someone. » He brought Jimin into a hug, he tightly wrapped his arms around his boyfriend holding him really close.
« Okay I'll think about it. » It was a good idea and he knew in order to be better so that was just the next step he had to take and for now the next step from this moment was going back to his apartment and he was going to suck it up and go so he can continue his journey of getting better.
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30 minute rule || Yoonmin
Fanfiction"Your dick's small." Park Jimin is the depressed teen who was forced into a clinic with suicidal thoughts constantly surrounding him an eating disorder closely following. His mind was a battle field and the 30 minute bathroom rule was pissing him of...
