« I'm so happy. » The two had finished their little fun moment and they were both lying in bed. Yoongi was laying on his back, the blankets were down half of his body as Jimin laid on his naked chest. His arm was draped over the older as they just laid there together.
« Why are you happy Yoonie? »
« One because you are cute when you call me Yoonie but more importantly I'm so happy that you're doing so well. » He didn't want to keep bringing up his recovery because that would get bad for Jimin's mental health but he couldn't stop telling him how proud he was because he truly knew that things would be good and that they'll both find happiness.
« I'm doing well for our future baby. » Yoongi furrowed his eyebrow in confusion. They weren't going to think about kids yet they still had tons of time he hadn't even graduated college yet.
« Are you pregnant? Jimin I swear we only did it twice. » He was joking and he laughed dragging his fingers gently on Jimin's hand that was over his body. They both giggled a little.
« Shut up, I'm talking about the dog. » He lightly slapped Yoongi on the chest, they can't even think about getting a real baby right now that was years in the future right now they are thinking just a couple months in the future.
« You are obsessed with this dog idea. » It was true, Jimin was obsessed with the idea of getting a dog because that symbolizes the future and good life and that was the only thing on his mind right now.
« It means when we get a dog that we are good, you won't have to worry about me relapsing because I'll be fine. » He was hoping when he recovers he won't struggle anymore but Yoongi knew from his experience that it won't take just a couple months for him to be okay. It might take years but he was willing to wait; he just didn't know if Jimin could wait because he was so excited and the way he talks seems like he can barely even wait a couple months.
« Well let's focus on the recovery first okay? » He didn't want to tell Jimin that it might take more than a month to start their future, sure he said when he graduates then they can start their future but the truth is they have to wait until Jimin is stable enough to go further.
« ugh I'll be okay, I'm already fine I'm great and I feel really good right now. » Jimin got up, he sat up and looked down at Yoongi, he genuinely thought he was going to be okay. He was trying to force himself to believe that he was fine even though he wasn't. He needed to believe that he was healthy because if he wasn't then Yoongi would be sad and he couldn't see that anymore.
« Baby, this is the third day, you couldn't even finish the first day. » Jimin rolled his eyes, he just wanted Yoongi to realize that he is okay even if he might not be. Yoongi was just stating the truth so he was confused on why Jimin was getting mad.
« Whatever. » Jimin rolled off the bed, he picked up his boxers and shirt, put them on, then stormed out of the room leaving Yoongi to just lay there looking up at the ceiling still confused.
Yoongi closed his eyes, he knew he should have just shut up because he upset Jimin. He just didn't want his boyfriend to hurt himself, he can't keep thinking that he'll fully recover in a month it wasn't possible and he knew he would eventually break and have a panic attack. He couldn't see Jimin break down. It would hurt to see but there wasn't anything he could do if Jimin continued to act like this.
He got off the bed putting on his boxers before he walked out to see where Jimin went. He heard pans clinking together, things hitting the counter and it only got louder as he walked over to where Jimin was in the kitchen.
« What are you doing? » Jimin turned around, he still looked mad but he was making a mess.
« Making dinner, I have to do this. » He went from looking at the folder to then trying to make out what it said, Yoongi just stood there for a couple seconds not knowing what was happening, it was like Jimin was forcing himself to do this and that wasn't healthy. Yes Jimin did need to eat and Yoongi wanted him to get better but it wasn't good if Jimin was forcing recovery upon himself he just needs to slow down.
« Can you just stop for a second. » He managed to get close to Jimin and grabbed his arm to stop him. He shook his head and just looked at Jimin, at this pace he was going to go down a dark hole because this wasn't healthy for him.
« Why? I need to eat dinner to finish this day, if I think about it I will oh god what am I doing. » Jimin started to cry, he set down a bag of pasta he was holding on the counter, he couldn't keep this up. It was exhausting.
« Hey babe calm down okay? If you want to fully recover you don't have to push this on yourself, you don't have to shove food down your throat in order to be okay. That's not healthy and if you just do this for the rest of your life how do you expect to have a dog and start our family? I don't want you to hurt yourself mentally. » He grabbed Jimin's arms to hold him and look him in the eyes and make sure he knows that what he is doing is not going to turn out okay for him.
« I'm sorry I just thought if i figured everything out now that we would be okay. I didn't know, I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry for getting mad I just don't want this anymore. » He was now just crying, he pushed his thoughts so far back that he couldn't even think properly. He didn't even know why he was doing it; he just knew he didn't want to feel pain anymore.
« We are in this together, you can't keep forcing yourself like this, I'm here for you but if you keep acting like this I don't think we'll get anywhere. » He brushed his fingers along Jimin's cheek cupping it right after rubbing his cheekbone with his thumb.
« So here go sit down and I'll get dinner ready, don't worry let me take care of you for now. » He gave Jimin a kiss on his forehead gently placing his hand on Jimin's lower back and walking him over to the couch where he handed over his laptop and letting him watch some Disney movies.
« Here, just relax okay? Don't stress I'll take care of you. » He gave Jimin a kiss on the lips before going back to the kitchen to clean up and make them dinner. He wasn't going to ask Jimin to make anything, he was going to be making everything for Jimin so he doesn't freak out like he just did.
It was a cup of noodles, a serving of broccoli and he was going to just let him drink some ice water. He got two plates ready and headed back out to Jimin where they would sit and watch snow white on his laptop as the two of them ate. Yoongi held Jimin in his arms as he let Jimin eat. He was focusing more on Jimin then himself which wasn't good but he only cared for the younger.
« Thank you, this is going to be really hard and I know that and I'm just sorry I acted the way I did earlier I just thought if I fixed myself tonight then I wouldn't suffer anymore. » Jimin was still crying and Yoongi became to rub on his shoulders so he would just relax and stop thinking about what just happened.
« I know trust me I've been there but you just have to realize that this is a process, just go slow. » The two kisses and when they were done with their meal Yoongi went to clean up their dishes while Jimin stayed on the couch.
Their night was spent with them both taking a shower together, just cleaning themselves up nothing more than that. They got dressed and Jimin decided to wear Yoongi's clothes because it made him calm down so Yoongi let him. They cuddled to sleep as Yoongi rubbed Jimin's back letting him fall asleep first.
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30 minute rule || Yoonmin
Fanfiction"Your dick's small." Park Jimin is the depressed teen who was forced into a clinic with suicidal thoughts constantly surrounding him an eating disorder closely following. His mind was a battle field and the 30 minute bathroom rule was pissing him of...
