A light || Ricky and Nini

Chapter 103

Ricky POV

Nini's lips work hungrily against mine and when she pulls back she breathes out heavily, looking into my eyes. Instead of saying anything though, I flip us over so that she's the one laying on her back on the grass and I frame her head in with my arms. I hover between her legs and I feel her shift so that she's closer to me, pulling down my neck so that she can kiss me deeper. I deepen our kiss, slipping my tongue into her mouth and her hands move up into my curls, tugging gently, eliciting a small groan from me. I pull back and I begin to kiss her neck slowly and almost instinctively, her legs wrap around my waist. It feels like she's just realized something though, because she separates her legs from me and her body stills. "What is it baby?" I mumble even though I'm still kissing the area below her ear slowly. She pushes at my shoulders a little bit though and I immediately roll off of her. "Are you okay?" I ask her and she nods. "Yeah it's just, well..." she gestures down to her sweatpants. I raise my eyebrows and she scoots her body close to mine carefully. "We just can't right now, I'm still, well I'm still on-" I understand her immediately and I nod, wrapping my arms around her body. "No that's okay. Are you uncomfortable?" I ask her and she shakes her head. "No I'm fine, I just didn't want to go too far because-" I rub her back and I pull her close to my side. "You don't have to explain. You do however have to admit that I'm a better painter than you." Her mouth drops open and I smile as she takes a second to form her angry response. "Untrue. You know it's untrue look at this straight line." She says laughing and she takes two fingers, drawing them down my chest slowly. She smiles and I know she's playing around but the feeling is so incredible and her gentle fingers send a sensory overload through my body. Her eyes meet mine and I know she can sense the change in our mood again. I clear my throat and she blushes, turning to dip her finger in a bit of paint. "Wha-" I start to say but she draws the paint over my cheek and begins to giggle. I mock offense but I smile. "It'd be a shame-" I start to say and then I pull her close and rub my cheek against hers. She squeals and when we pull back she runs away from me laughing.

Nini POV

The next day I wake up early, making breakfast for my moms. I successfully got out of talking with them last night (because Ricky stayed over for hours) but I knew we'd probably talk this morning and I was already way more nervous that necessary. "Something smells amazing down here." Momma C says with a bright smile, walking hand and hand with Momma D. "Happy Saturday, I made pancakes." I laugh, gesturing to the stove and smiling. "Alright young lady, what do you want?" Momma D asks and I laugh, shaking my head. "Nothing, well actually..." I laugh again, thinking about running my idea for Ricky's party by them. "We triggered something didn't we." Momma C says and I shake my head with a smile. "I was actually just gonna tell you my plan for Ricky's party. I'm gonna have two, one for family and friends and one for-" Momma D cuts me off with a smile. "You two?" I blush and look down. "Yeah at the park." I say and they smile. "Well do you need help with the first party?" I nod eagerly. "I think we're gonna hold it at his house maybe? I'm gonna distract him for a few hours so that people can set up there, but I thought it'd be great for him to have a few good memories in that place." My moms nod, smiling and sitting down to start their breakfast. "Let us know what we can do then and we'll do it." I smile gratefully and sit at the table with them. "So do you want to talk about the reason why you got up early and made us breakfast?" Momma D says and I smile nervously. "Sorta" I admit and she nods, her fork resting back on the plate.

"Nini I want you to remember that none of this really means anything anymore. So much time has passed." I nod and I rub my hands together nervously, waiting for Momma D to start. "So your dad and I were married for about 3 months before you showed up on the scene and afterwards we were married for 3 years." I nod, getting comfortable for the story. "But obviously things changed in my mind, and I tried to stay with him for your sake. I knew I couldn't raise you on my own but eventually, it was harder to be with him. I couldn't help who I was." Momma D says gently and Momma C's hand comes to rest on her shoulder. "I told him about what I was going through, who I was in general, and he was unhappy to say the least. Things were fine for a while but he started degrading me and making me feel like I wasn't worth it so at that point, I had to do what I thought was best. We divorced and had shared custody of you for a while, until he would make pointed comments about you hanging out with girls too much. He was 'scared' you'd end up like me. The man was so damn thrilled when you and Ricky became inseparable. In the end, I couldn't handle it anymore and I fought for full custody of you while you were in kindergarten and he walked away from being your parent." I frown, tears prickling the back of my eyes as I think about the verbal abuse that my mom went through. "I'm so sorry momma" I say gently, walking over to give her a hug and she holds me close. "Thank you for everything you've done for me." I say gently and she nods. "I'm always gonna fight for you baby girl." I nod and I pull back. "I'm going to go out for a little walk." I say softly and Momma C speaks up. "You okay Nin?" I nod and give my best smile. "I just need to think and walk." I say and Momma D rubs my back in response. "Take your time." She says and I give her one more hug, grabbing my phone off the table and leaving the kitchen. I put in my headphones, and the second the front door shuts I let my tears spill. I cry for my mom who endured so much, I cry for the little girl who would come home to a father asking her not to hang out with girls and I cry for the fact that I don't remember the man at all. As I walk, I slam into a body, not hearing anyone approaching because of my music playing and my blurred eyesight focused on the sidewalk. The hands of the person grab me to make sure I'm not hurt from the impact. "Oh I'm so sorry" I say softly and I look up to see Ricky's concerned face looking down at me, gripping my shoulders. "Nini, baby are you okay?"

Ricky pulls me to his chest and I inhale the scent of his cologne, wrapping my arms around him and holding him tightly. Ricky rubs my back soothingly, consoling me without having to say a word. "Hey shh" he says as I break my streak of silent crying with a louder sob and his hand moves up to comb through my hair gently. "I'm right here."