A light || Ricky and Nini

Chapter 4

Ricky POV

It's nearly 3 am and I haven't slept at all. Memories of the night keep flashing through my mind and it's impossible to turn my brain off. Everything from Nini's heart breaking over the school, to our heated make out session and even to her confession about us having sex. Nini turns lightly in her sleep and grips onto my arm and I turn my head to stare down at her. She is so beautiful, and I feel like the luckiest man in the world. She's laying in my arms, comfortable enough to be shirtless under my wandering eyes and she's holding on to ME for comfort. I had an idea of where we were going tonight the second she climbed onto my lap, but her adrenaline was pushing us to go further than we ever had and I was eagerly following in a way that I've never had. As minutes went by we kept pushing each other to go further, with pauses of permission as we were lifted to a natural high. The second she was under me though, I saw the panic in her eyes. I stopped all of my movements before she could even ask. Her hesitation was clear, and I could tell she was conflicted, which made me certain that we had to stop for the night. Even though we weren't physically doing anything, holding her in my arms while she confesses to thinking about us in the most intimate way made me feel incredible. That was enough for me right now, no matter how much I wanted to go further with her. 

I wake up the sun streaming in through Nini's windows, and I pat the bed to see if she's still with me. Disappointingly, I come up with nothing and I peak one eye open. From my place in bed I notice Nini with a towel clinging to her body, digging through her closest to find something to wear. Her wet hair is stuck to her back in the most beautiful way and I'm mesmerized by the way her curves are prominent underneath the towel. I know I shouldn't look but but the second the towel drops I'm completely frozen and I close my eyes as she puts clothes on. I hear movements, and I assume she's walking over to the bed so I squeeze my eyes shut tighter in hopes she believes my fake sleeping. Suddenly I feel gentle hands stroking my hair and roaming around my cheek. My eyes, unable to stay shut, flutter open at her touch and I'm greeted with the warmest smile and the most gentle damn eyes I've ever seen. "Good morning Ricky, it's almost 11, I just wanted to let you know that I'm going out to get some breakfast." I hum in happiness and nod, getting up to stretch, and pulling Nini into me. I look at her and she takes the words out of my mind saying "I don't regret anything from last night" in the smallest little whisper. She leans into me and I whisper back "I'm glad you mentioned it, I thought it was a dream." She giggles and pushes me away before telling me that the shower is all mine if I needed. She let me know that she'd be back soon and we'd spend the day together.

As she leaves the room I get up and make my way over to the door, almost tripping on a notebook. I look down and recognize the cover as the book Nini writes her songs in. I realize that I've never heard her originals, and I couldn't help but allow my mind to think about the fact that se isn't here.