Mourning Skies

Twice

So this poem is just me getting my thoughts out. I apologize for how bad it is, I just had a really bad time at the dance and I felt the need to get my feelings out somehow so here ya go

I should have learned
From the first time
You completely fucked me over
Sent me on a downwards spiral
Down in flames
You were the reason behind the tears I shed
At my first homecoming
Yet you had the audacity
To slow dance with me
Get my heart beating again
Filling me with life again
Lips on yours sending sparks across the room
And i left feeling like there was a chance
There was a spark in your eyes
But now I know it was but a reflection
Of my own spark

Because I spent another dance
Bawling my eyes out in a shitty bathroom
Random people walking by
Wondering what's wrong
Make up cascading down both cheeks
This time even worse
Because I should have known
You would go out and dance
To a song we shared
The steady beat
Reaching that of my heart
Stops
Nothing more
No more blood in my veins
Because seeing his lips on yours
Was just anther reminder
It was all a lie
It was all a fucking lie
Every syllable from your lips
Every time you said you loved me more
I obviously loved you more
I was never a fucking thing to you

Can't control your feelings for people?
How about don't make me one of
Your cold victims
The ones muttering your name
In nightmares they see
Of you
All of you
You take over my mind like no one
Not once this time but twice
I am sent into a panic
The only hope of surviving the night
In a phone I type this up in