Mourning Skies

The Phantom

The shudders quaked
And the air, how it fell
I couldn't breathe
For I couldn't tell

She arrived in silence
A phantom she seemed.
Surrounded in a cloak
And eyes that gleamed.

She swept to my bed
And reached out for me.
I eased away
For...it couldn't be.

Her hood flew down.
Her eyes bore into mine.
My heart began to stop.
I'd gone back in time.

She showed me my losses
My regrets, my fears
Then we had reached
That day from the past years

I was barely 13, all alone
Huddled in bed, crying in pain
The sting of the blade
Had me going insane

I grasped Her boney arm
And pleaded for some hope
I wanted this to end.
She handed me a rope.

The darkness took over me.
I was put of control.
It seems it never ends.
My pain had took its toll.



I woke to a bright light.
My family had surrounded me.
A monitor was beeping.
Is this how it should be..?

My mother looked right at me
And grabbed me by my wrist
She said, "Why did you do it?
Why couldn't you resist?"

I glanced all around.
The one I loved was crying.
Did I cause this fuss?
All over me dying?

I felt at my neck
And recoiled at the touch.
The red, beating rash
Made me cringe just as such.

"You didn't tie it well.
The knot wasn't quite right.
I can't believe I almost
Had lost you last night."

I couldn't believe I hurt him.
Why couldn't he see?
He was the entire
Fucking world to me.

After they all left.
The phantom made me drain.
She grabbed me by the wrist
And inflicted so much pain.

"You're nothing. Don't you see?"
She pushed me to the wall.
"Look over at that railing.
I want to see you fall."

Voices overtook me.
Her eyes had shown me lies.
Someone must have heard
My wicked, sickly cries.

Arms surrounded me
And I felt at peace.
All of the sadness..
Just began to cease.

You can be saved.
I know, because I was too
Even just one person
Can make a difference in you.