Mourning Skies

11:11 Wishes

We used to make wishes at 11:11
And wish we could be together
For the one at night

We were young
And maybe I was naive but
You were my everything
And now I'm not so sure

You see, I still don't know how
The best thing on earth
At the time
Could turn into
The worst of my life

I thought I loved you
I thought you loved me
I remember you asking me
When we were talking about the boy
Whose spit was still on your tongue

You said "What happened?"
"Why doesn't he love me anymore?"

My vision went blurry
I couldn't even see
The words in front of me
You saw me mad
But you never saw me like this

Well I told you
"I'd like to ask you the same thing"

And you said you couldn't handle this

You can't handle this?

I've sat up every night since you told me
You were fucking your goddamn ex
The one who threw you against the wall
Pressed his lips to your with a force
That could shake the earth
You told me not to worry
You said, "I don't love him."

Do you ever tell the truth?
Did you tell him that you didn't love him?
Did I ever fucking mean a thing to you?

I'm not sure who to believe
You or the voices
The voice of reason
Is telling me you're bad news
But how can something
That used to be my oxygen
My very essence of my being
Be like carbon monoxide
I couldn't smell you I couldn't taste you
But you were destroying me

You're a goddamn disease
There's no cure for the brokenness
Inside what used to be me
I'm an empty shell
I'm wearing a mask
But even when I see you I can't help
But feel the familiar twinge in my chest

We used to make wishes at 11:11
And wish we could be together
For the one at night

I usually don't make wishes anymore
But tonight
I wished for you back