Mourning Skies

Remembrance

It's so hard to forget

It's like torture

I remember every fucking "I love you"

Every kiss that flowed from my trembling lips to my chest to my stomach

Every touch that you left on my bare skin, where we declared our love and I whispered sweet nothing's into your ear

But since you've gone, I've tried everything

I've tried everything to wash you clean from my system with liquor and narcotics

When that didn't work I took blades to my flesh to cut you out from under my skin but instead I was out into a hospital and left with more scars than I can count

At my release I got home and buried myself in blankets and pillows and showed myself there was warmth in the world

So I still I dream of you

Still I write your name in the fog of the mirror

Still I think of you on long, restless nights

Still I feel your sweet lips on mine

And though I will never forget the high you gave me

I will remember to look for it in someone who feels the same