Mourning Skies

I want to know

I want to know how it felt

To feel each tear stream down your face

When you told me you were broken

And there was no way to brace

For the storm that

was bound to hit home

And every moment drawing nearer

Seethed with anxiety and you dove

Into the waves where they crashed like

Voices on the shore

Screaming "fuck, you mean nothing,

Don't you stay a second more"

I want to know how it felt

When it all came crashing down

When the vessel capsized

And your smile turned to a frown

When the voices in your head

Turned to scars on your hips

When every time someone asked

Lies poured from your lips

How did you go on

knowing she was all alone

Sitting in bed with her voice belting

"Pick up the phone!"

I want to know how it felt

When she opened the door

To find you in a sea of your blood

Crimson flooded the floor

Out on the staircase

you left a note that hardly read,

"I hope you're reading this

The moment that you find me dead"

I want to know how it felt

When every night she cried

Waking from nightmares each sleep

Of seeing you when you died

How the breath left her chest

Like a blow to her heart

Like a fall from one thousand feet

And she's drenched in sweat from the start

I want to know what it sounded like

When your mother's sanity snapped

As the phone dropped to the floor

And from her mouth cries were trapped

Because who wants to wake up

When the world turns through

And each sunrise and set

Is a day vacant without you

And who wants to see

Each smile and clap

When all they can witness

Is reality's slap

Into perspective

they see

A world without

Me