Mourning Skies

Shackles

After trial and error
Year upon year
Listening to every countless discussion
On how wronged you have been
How many people have stabbed you in the back
How the one you claimed to love
Turned their back on you
Can you truly blame me
For not knowing who to believe?

And so when your true face leaked
From the supposed cracks they forged
Your once loving touch
Turned to a violent smack
As self discovery took away what mere sanity
You had yet to obtain
Ashamed to be seen with me
Assumed I was pulling an unwanted attitude
Simply because I was too petrified
To stand up to you before

Blame it on what you wish
Blame my hair
Blame my name
Blame my place
Blame woman you claimed to love
And then slammed against the wall

Because seeing you snap time after time
Would of course lead to fear
Who wouldn't be scared?
You do not demand respect
It is earned
And keeping your flesh and blood
Ignorant to your ways
Until one day you recede so much
That you began dragging us down with you
But I had to find a way out
From the cataclysmic dark matter you are

And the scariest part of it all
Is that you can't see
How you hurt me

But I suppose it's for the best
I gave options
I set boundaries
I wrapped my mouth in tape
Bound myself to the corner by shackles
But it couldn't last forever
No you broke the chains on your own
You always said to fight back against a bully
But you never thought it would be you
I would have to be fighting

Because you told me to never turn my back
On you

The "only one"
To never turn his back
On me