Mourning Skies

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What was I supposed to do

When the darkness came back

I thought I'd turn to you

But your presence I'd lack

So the next day I returned

And I plastered on a smile

You hugged and you said

You hadn't seen me for a while

My heart began to shatter

But I kept standing with my mask

If you even wanted to save me

All you needed to do was ask

But now I'm far gone

I'm six feet under ground

This place I feel is heaven

I can't hear that wretched sound

I came back in spirit to see

You just one more single time

You stood right at my grave

And you looked completely fine

You placed a wreath upon the ground

And strolled though me out the gate

A feeling rose inside of me

A feeling much like hate

I screamed and you seemed to turn

You surveyed the area in worry

Then ran back to your car

In quite some sort of hurry

As you disappeared into the dust

I clenched my hands in fists

A glance had this revealed

The missing scars on my wrists

"You're better now, I promise

You don't have to feel that pain

There simply is no way

To feel ever the same."

I looked back to the voice

And standing there, you see

Was a woman that looked...

Like me

"SHUT UP YOU DONT KNOW!

I LOVED HER," I screamed.

But I knew that the truth

Was never redeemed.

I sunk back to the earth

And into the sleep

The sleep I'd fallen

Into so deep

The boiling anger was gone

And the peace had settled in

I drifted back under the dark

Where I'd always truly been.