Mourning Skies

The Fall

When I came home I collapsed into my bed

I hoped the medicine would stop the voices in my head

Anxiety grabbed me by the wrist and crawled in through my ear

The horrid feeling of my pounding heart showed my fear

After a restless night I met my friend who waited for return

She held me tight and cried her tears and I felt my own eyes burn

She sat me down upon the step outside of our high school

The silence fell and I felt my hands shaking, losing my cool

She asked me why I'd do that to her and I said I need release

Her anger rose as she stood up, "don't speak to me until this madness does cease."

Her feet carried her up the steps and I reached out for her arm

I explained "I couldn't help it, I can't escape from my own harm"

Thoughts flooded in and my mind was pulling lose

I reached into my bag and fumbled for my noose

The biggest tree inside the courtyard seemed like a good place

"Just set me free, I can't continue to face

The people here that say I matter to them at all

When I know that every night they pray to see me fall"

I jumped from the top branch and felt my neck crack

I know this time there will be no going back.