Mourning Skies

I'm Sorry

I always been a forgiver
But I've never forgotten
A smidgen of pain
Anyone has caused me
I guess I'm the person
Who peels back the story
Layer by layer
As if the sheets of paper
Were onion skin
Or maybe I just find a reason
For the way people act
Because anxiety has taught me
You never really know
You never know someone's home life
You never know someone's thoughts
Someone's mind
Could be running all the time
Or their emotions are completely
Out of their control
Slipping like sand
From their hands
And I say I'm sorry
For people who's actions
I can find any reason
For causing them
And I'm sorry I couldn't come
To a solitary conclusion
And I hid away from your downward glance
And I'm sorry that I didn't wear
The clothes you wanted me to
I'm sorry you grew up that way
I'm sorry your father hit you
I'm sorry your mother was hardly sober
And I can't help but feel
I added to your stress
And I'm sorry I left
I'm sorry I question my life every morning
I'm sorry I look in the mirror too long
I'm sorry I threatened
To never come back
And I'm sorry that I stayed as long as I did
I'm sorry you grew up without love
I'm sorry I had to be another person
You pushed out
I'm sorry you were in the dark
I'm sorry that I never felt comfortable
Spilling my guts to someone
Who would only focus on the mess
And not the fact that
My insides were on the outside
I'm sorry that you can't see
What you're doing is wrong
I'm sorry if I'm doing something wrong
But most of all
I'm sorry for saying sorry so much