Mourning Skies

Crushing Anxiety

It's terrifying
My chest is caving

I don't often get moments like this
My heart stops, I question if I exist
Am I here? Is this real?
Is this a normal way to feel?

Breaking free from what i used to be
Pealing off the mask that was me
Some scars I'll have to hide
For the rest of my life

They're not the bad
They just make me sad
I can think of a time when I couldn't live
Inside my own skin I began to drift

Sitting in math class measuring angles
my focus shifts, my mind is is shamble

I can hear their words
Pecking at my eyes like birds
I'm just their prey now
I can't figure this out

If everyone feels this way
Why do I have to stay?

What a joke
Hear me choke
On these words that I said
You'll hear this when I'm dead

My mere existence drags me below
My anxiety grows every time you say hello
I can't have you here anymore
You're messing with my head like never before

I can't take this anymore
Bleeding from my wrists, I slam the door
As the blood hits the floor I finally see
This isn't who I'm supposed to be