Mourning Skies

Held

I remember
When our bodies connected
When you wrapped your arms
Around my waist
As if I was a piece of
Fine art
And I needed to be protected

I know when our lips connected
As well
All I wanted
Was to dance my fingers through your hair
Like little boats on the sea
And I wanted to stare into your eyes
And get so terribly lost
But I was already

You held me as if
I'm the only one
Who can hold you so tight
I meld all your broken pieces together
Let my warm kisses be the glue
That holds them together
No, you will not be the same
You will have cracks
And perhaps
Parts of you people have stolen

But I don't mind
They make you all the more perfect

I tried telling you that
And for a while you'd smile
Say you love me with your lips curved up
Like the Cheshire Cat
You said you loved me

Our hugs began turning
Into less as if I were art
And more like a bed of needles
Like if you held me too long
You'd get hurt, too

Our kisses melted
Into simple pecks
And no longer
Did your lips curl up
Your mouth seethed with disgust
You hated me
You couldn't stand me
You started leaving me
before saying goodbye
Why didn't you say goodbye?
You were so empty
So lifeless
And I can't help but wonder
If I made you that way

And no matter how you deny
And say we're fine
I can't help but hear
That twinge in your voice
It was stronger than our lost love
It was mightier than the heart you had lost
Maybe even mightier than mine

And at night
When I'm weighed down
And my blood has turned to alcohol
I hear your voice
Like a ghost from the past
Ripping me apart
Did you ever tell me the truth?
Did you ever love me?

No you dug your knife in
Deeper than bone
You left it in my soul!
You left it there to get infected
You planted a seed
Of disgust
In my heart
I know

I just want to hold you