Mourning Skies

Shake

I'd like to think that I was what you say

To believe I am beauty and strength

Would be a blessing

But I am far too fragile

I can be shaken by words

That rattle the very earth beneath my feet

I can be pummeled by fists

Of anger and hate

And I can be overpowered by the voices

That ramble in my head over and over

That I do not deserve you

That I am not at all what you say

And I will disappoint you

I will sway in the breeze

Of the explosions around me

Falling like atomic bombs

Lined with memories and words

From the past

I cannot erase

I cannot detain my weakness

I cannot stop myself

from falling limp in your arms

I can't go on

Like nothing hurts

I can't pretend

That my heavy eyelids

Long for the rest that death allows

I will walk this earth as if

My funeral does not cross my mind

I will fake a smile each day

As if I am not crumbling like autumn leaves

I did it long enough,

Haven't I?

I begin to believe

I have even fooled myself

For the darkness goes away

As the light from your smile fights it