Sorry for not uploading in like a month it's been a bad month and this month is starting off bad so this is gonna be a sad one. Tw for depression,suicidal thoughts,and suicide.
Stephen thought that dying was something that happened fast,but he was wrong it takes years.Years that are long and boring,mostly sad and lonely.
Yes he has friends but even with them he still feels like an outcast.He'd felt like this for years and hell he even knew what suicide was when he ten.
But now he turned 35 and he very much wants to die.
For the first time in a long time he was excited to celebrate his birthday.Yes he celebrated his birthday before and he never really expected it.So when he would walk into BGT he was met with people saying 'happy birthday'and'HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVIE'from Ant.
It was always fun being with Ant and Dec on his birthday but now it was weird.The only thing he got for his birthday was a bottle of whiskey.Which he got for himself.
He knew he shouldn't expect anything but at least Ant or Dec,who are his best friends and basically brothers forgot.
Now he was numb as he watched his phone light up when he got a text from Simon saying there is a meating he needs to attend tomorrow.It taunted him,he grabbed his phone a chucked it at the wall.
He was not going to go,not that it would matter after tonight.he opened the bottle and let the crisp taste hit his taste buds,it burned and he like it.
It didn't take a long time to finish the bottle,not that time mattered.He stared at the broken pieces of his phone.He had to wonder who would find him,not that he cared.
Stephen thought of leaving a goody-bye letter but he didn't know what to say.Was he supposed to say thank you or sorry he did this or that he couldn't be bothered to stay another day.
Ant would most likely mourn him the most and Dec would just try and hide his feelings but fail,David might be glad not to be near him anymore and the girls would be sad they hadn't noticed and Simon would be glad he won't have to pay him anymore.
So to say waking up everyday and living a pretend life is dying slowly.But it does only take one bullet to the head to end the pain in his chest.
So after taking one last look at the photo of him and Ant,Dec and the judges he pulls the trigger.
This was short sorry:(
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Stephen Mulhern one shots
Fanfictionsince their isn't a lot of stuff about this one i will make some and they probably wont be good but it is what it is.Plus he's my favorite on bgt right under david P.s i write sad stuff so some might be rather depressing and some might be happy who...
