Stephen Mulhern one shots

A Drop In The Ocean

Suicide 

He watched the dark choppy water from where he was sitting on the bridge,wondering if the water would be cold.But that didn't matter if it was he wouldn't really feel it since he wasn't really able to feel anything at this point.

He was so numb nothing bothered him anymore.Your probably wondering why a usually happy and energetic guy was sitting on a ledge of a bridge debating whether or not he should jump.Well it's called life and it kicks you when your down and kicks you even harder when you try to get back up.

Stephen swung his legs back and forth as the wind blew around him making the waves look more welcoming.He just stared at the water not caring about the cars on the road or the people walking by trying to get home and here he was not going home.

He looked at his phone seeing it was a little past nine,a time he usually was getting ready for bed so he could be regressed for work the next day.But this time he wasn't sure if he was going to work the next day or going to his bed that night.

He hoped Ant or Dec would text him to see if he was okay but he had little hope.The two men were rather upset with him like the others were as well.

He didn't mean to upset everyone with what he had planned for BGMT but he did and he felt horrible.David wasn't happy and he made fun of Stephen In front of everyone and didn't even hold himself back.Simon didn't stop David from making fun of him nor did the girls and Ant and Dec glared at him.

He really didn't understand why they were mad at him it was someone else that made the game and he only presented it but no they were rather angry at him.

And it hurt really bad.

Dec and Ant usually were more understanding and they were presenters and know that someone else writes the stuff and they presents it.Stephen could handle the others to be mad at him but not his brothers and their harsh glares and muttered comments hurt.

He really hoped for a call or text by one of them telling him that they weren't really mad but it was getting later and his hopes of that happening was slimming.

And as time passed the choppy water looked really good.

He decided to give both a call and if neither answered he was going to jump into the dark water.He clicked on Dec's number and it rang and rang.His heart hurt as the ringing tone kept going until it eventually went to voicemail.The tears started to stroll down his pale face,his shaky hands clicked on his last hope.

The ringing started and his gut twisted more hoping Ant would answer but sadly he didn't. Stephen did think about leaving a voicemail but he didn't want Ant to hear his voice.So he decided to just send the location of where he was at.

Seeing it would help the cops when they look for his body.Yes this might seem pathetic him killing himself because his friends were mad at him but it wasn't just that.

They were his only friends and he was already not mentally okay and this was a push that he couldn't push back from.

Besides he figured no one really would care if dies.His family hates him,fans of BGT hate him and even once through a bucket of paint on him and now his friends hate him.Nobody actually cared so why should he?.

He stood up and let the wind push him a little before looking down at the water again.It was dark and probably cold but that would most likely put him into shock but that didn't matter.His phone was placed to the side so when the cops showed up at some point they would know he actually jumped.

He took one last breath before letting go of the rail he was gripping,and let the cold water take over.

The cars were still making noise as the last bit of people were making their way home,the water still choppy,trees making noise as they moved from the wind and a ringing from the lonely phone but it eventually went to voicemail.