I was in the dressing room holding the eyeshadow palette and the fluffy brush in my hands waiting for jin to come back and get his makeup done." Jin you're performing in half an hour, please come here-" I sighed as he played with his girlfriend's puppy.
" Liv can we talk at home? We have to perform soon." he asked her as she nodded with a smile and left the room with her dog.
I sighed as I started applying his makeup, I had feelings for him since forever and I couldnt bear seeing him with his girlfriend.
I felt an unwelcome tear escape my eye as I looked at him, still happily smiling while he looked at her photos on his phone.
More tears slowly fell as I tried wiping them quickly, but they fell onto jin's phome, grabbing his attention.
" Omg y/n what happened? Why are you crying? " he sounded concerned, he immediately put his phone aside and looked at me.
Taking the palette from my hand, he put it on the table and looked at me concerned.
" What happened? Why are you crying?"" It's nothing jin, let me get back to your makeup-" I took the palette into my hands and started putting on more makeup.
" I already look handsome and I don't need more makeup, now tell me what's happening or I'll walk out like this." he threatened me.
" Jin it's just- it's complicated please- " I tried shrugging the feeling off as I kept applying the makeup.
" So you don't think you should tell me, am I a stranger to you? " he asked making a sense of guilt seep into my heart.
" Jin I love you okay- I have feelings for you." I spat out quickly before slamming the brush down.
" What? What did you just say? " he was shocked, I was stunned at his ability to ignore all the hints I had dropped.
I took a deep breath and planted my lips on his quickly and just then I heard the door click open making my backbone go straight in shock.
" J-jin? " Liv's voice was heard, making me get off his face and use the desk as a support.
" Liv look it's not what you think" he stood up as he walked closer to her, she walked back.
Passing a water bottle to her, he stood up straight. " Explain jin. " Liv's stone-cold voice sounded in the room.
" Y/n do you want to explain yourself? " jin's voice sounded, I looked at both of them with tear filled eyes.
" I don't have any feelings for her liv- " I interrupted jin, I couldn't hear it after liking him for 10 years.
" Olivia, I have feelings for him and I forced myself on him. " I said, I wished so badly I could run away from there.
Admitting it aloud made me want to die there so badly but I held it together, or I thought I did.
" Jin, I need space, I'm sorry- I'll call you tomorrow." Olivia said before leaving the room coldly.
All the guilt in the world seemed to be hitting me at once, making me weak as hell.
" Are you happy y/n? She is the hirl that I love, I'm sorry I see you as nothing more than a friend y/n I-" he stopped himself from saying any further.
" L-let me do your makeup. " I said and started applying it on him again more precisely this time.
He sat there as if he had hated it, his facial expressions were so apparent, I had made him hate me.
I ruined his relationship putting him in a dilemma with the love of his life. What more could I expect from him?
I felt tears spring to my eyes but I held it together for the time being, those tears could only be shown to my closet walls, no one else.
His face was so emotionless that it scared me, but I finished his makeup successfully.
Taking the clothes I prepared for the performance, I gave them to him.He wordlessly took them and walked to the closet, closing the door behind him.
He had never done that before.It looked like I was not even worthy to see him shirtless anymore. It was my fault anyway, feeling a piercing pain through my chest, I held onto his chair for support.
He walked out of the room and went on the stage, as I watched him from backstage, I felt my insides twist.
He didnt even smile once,his body movements were urgent and hard, he looked like he was fully concentrating.
But only I knew he was angry, I knew I had done a mistake that couldnt be redeemable. Finishing his two songs, he came to the backstage.
I gave him a white towel and carefully wiped his face making sure the makeup wasn't gonna be ruined.
His expressions didnt have much of a change, and he still looked mad. I realized that I was nothing but an eyesore right now.
" Amelie can you please help jin with his makeup and touch ups?" I asked taehyung's stylist.
She nodded, I walked out of the venue slowly, taking myself to wherever my feet were going, I found myself at an empty bus stop.
Sitting on the bench, I held my knees close to my chest as I started letting the tears fall.
" I'm so sorry jin, for hurting you with my love."