| J POV |
Paris still shook up from the other day and I understand I just Wish she a talk to me doe. All she wanna do is lay under me and it ain't no problem cause that's all I want her to do, I enjoy it. I wanna talk to her but I ont wanna bring up what happened. I been stayin home wit her lately until she get back to the way she was. "Hey baby" she yelled jumpin on the bed. I squinted my eyes at her. "Wassup" I said. She laid on my chest and looked at me. "Paris baby you know I love you" I said. "Love you too" she said. "So why won't you talk to me about what happened" I asked and she sat up and smiled. "I wanna watch a movie Babe. You wanna watch a movie?" She asked ignoring me. "Paris Please" I said. "Or we could just have sex alllll day" she said and I sighed. "No" I said and she nodded. "Better yet we Co....." she started to say when I cut her off by shakin my head. "Please talk to me about thi.... " I started to say. "Im fucked up okay?!?" She yelled. "You see the shit I went through. Im not right, my life is fucked up. I told you if I was to ever get with you I would fuck your life up and look ... just admit it I did" she said with tears rollin down her face. "I Wish he woulda killed me" she said and I shook my head. "No Babe" I said. "Don't do that. Im tired of you tryin to save me all the time. Let me go" she said. "What you mean by let you go?" I asked. "Let me go. Let me live. Let me be alone" she said and I nodded and sighed. "Awl you wanna be single?" I asked. She stared at me and stayed silent. "Alright you got it" I said and I got out the bed. I slipped my hoodie on and my shoes. I grabbed my keys and walked out the room. I heard her call my name but shit I ont give no fucks. I ran down the stairs and went out the front door. I unlocked my car doors and got inside the car. I started the car up and drove off. "Yo" I said to Cali. Me and her got back close and I always go to her when I got problems. "Come talk wit me.im finna pull up." I said to her. "Okay" she said and I hung up. 10 minutes later I pulled up to uncle Christian house and she came out. She ran to the car and got in. "Hey" she said and I kissed her cheek. "Wassup witchu " I asked. "Same ol same ol. Im holding on" she said and I knew she was referring to tj gettin killed. "How you dealin wit that?" I asked and she shrugged. "Im dealin with it pretty well. I just can't believe he would do something like that. Even After what he did I still love him. I don't care what anybody says" she said and I nodded. "That's Wassup. Paris broke up wit me" I said and she snapped her head in my direction. "No" she said and I sighed and nodded. "Oh wow. Why?" She asked. "I ont even know LiLi. I really don't. She goin through some shit right now" I said. "She didn't mean it. That's why she told you that because she needs space. And when she needs space don't give it to her. When she tells you to leave, don't go. I know you running away from your problem right now but you needa talk to her" Cali said and I nodded . "She ain't gone talk to me ma. But I can try" I said. "That's good enough. I gotta get back inside. I love you and everything will be okay" she said. "Love you too" I said and she got out the car. I needa get drunk. I drove to James house and knocked on the door. He came and opened the door and he was standin there with eyes low as hell. "You high?" I asked. '"Nah man I was sleep. Wassup" he asked lettin me in. "Shit" I yelled and he shushed me. He sat down on the couch and sighed. "Who here" I asked. "Tai and her kid" he said and I smirked. "Good shit. Wassup witchu" I asked. "Man she told me she love me" he said. "Okay?...." "and I said it back" he said. "Okay.... where the bad news" I asked. "That is bad cause I ont love her in that way man." He said and I nodded. "Man I just came over here to get drunk. "Do what you do man. Just don't wake lil man up and be careful" he said dappin me up. He walked back upstairs and I walked into the kitchen. I grabbed the bottle of 1800 , ciroc and hennessy. I poured it all in one big ass cup and downed it . I poured another cup and downed it I took cup After cup After cup. I stumbled to the living room and fell out on the couch
