| J POV |
"Why you make this shit so hard for me Paris?" I asked as we sat in the driveway of my parents house, my moms having a get together I guess. "Make what?" She asked. "Why do you make lovin you so hard?" I asked and she sighed. " I'm just going through some Shit Okay" she said and I nodded and looked down. "You my girl. You wit me. You suppose to communicate wit me but you don't. We 17 Years old..... dam near grown." I said and she sighed. "If it's so hard Why are you still with me." She asked and I shrugged. " I ont know" I said. "Lets break up" she said and my heart dropped. I looked at her and she lookin at me. "That's what you wanna do ma?" I asked and she shrugged and nodded. I bit my bottom lip and nodded. "I a give you whatever you want so Shit if that's what you want, you got it. No turning back no nothin. This permanent, I ain't comin back this time. I promise" I said gettin out the car. I sighed and walked inside the house wit her behind me. "Can I talk to you?" I asked tappin my pops. He told uncle Q and them he a be back and I followed him to his office. "Wassup" he asked sittin on the edge of the desk and lightin up a blunt. "You and mom ever broke up before when y'all was teenagers?" I asked and he nodded. "Back to back" he said inhaling the smoke. He tried to pass it to me but I turned it down. "I'm good pops. But me and Paris just broke up" I said and he nodded. "I see" he said. I sighed and shook my head. "Let her go" he said and I smacked my lips. "I can't" I said. "You can't? Don't none of the velazquez family members got the Word can't in they blood. Let her go. She don't wanna be kept. Let her go" he said and I nodded. "Ima try. Pops this time I ain't goin back. I know she goin through some stuff but Damn. I coulda helped her but she wanna break up with me and Shit. I'm too young to be stressin" I said and he nodded. "Well you gotta be there for the kids, no questions asked" he said and I looked down. "We lost em" I said and he stared at me. "When?" He asked and I sighed. "Yesterday" I said and he shook his head. "I'm sorry son" he said and I shrugged. "It's all good pops. Let me get back out here though" I said and he stood up and nodded. We walked out the room. I sighed and slumped down on the couch next to Q. I laid my head Back and sighed while rubbin my fingers through my curls. "What's wrong wit chu?" Q Asked and I opened my eyes. "Shit" I said and he laughed. "Single ass nigga " he said while holdin brianna. I looked at her and smirked. I just listened to her makin all these babbling noises with her mouth. "Come here bri " I said and she crawled onto my lap. Q smacked his lips and I laughed. I picked her up and she stared at me. I smirked and she smiled, showing her gums . I sat her down and she grabbed my finger and chewed on it. "She teething bruh?" I asked and he nodded. "Yeah and don't just let er chew on ya finger dumb ass. Here" he said handin me her chew toy. I gave it to her and she threw it and chewed back on my finger. "If you grow up to be a hoe uncle J gone beat yo a...." I started to say when somebody choked me from behind. "Uncle J is gonna what?" I heard Jessica say. I laughed and she laughed and let me go. "Give me my baby" she said and I shook my head. "Nah baby girl let me keep her for a little bit longer " I said and she smiled and nodded. "Sorry for your lost" she said and I smirked. "Its all good" I said and she kissed my cheek. I looked at brianna and she grabbed my face. "What?" I asked and she smiled. She kissed my lips and got slobber all over em. "I love you too bri" I said wiping the slobber off my lips. I looked over and Q was starin at me smiling. "Yo" Q said. "You woulda been a good dad. No doubt" he said and I smirked. "Thanks man. I a be aight though. One day ima have my lil family and Shit and be happy like y'all niggas" I said and he nodded. "I believe it" he said. "Where James?" I asked. "He out with his mom and tai and Lik" Q said and I nodded. "That's wassup man. Aunt Tracy still look the same?" I asked and he mugged me. "She was always beautiful man. But moms look betta. Pops downgraded wit Leslie fashodo." He said and I laughed. "Unc" I said and he looked at me. "How aunt tracy doin?" I asked makin my dad and uncle Christian laugh. He mugged me. "I ont know. Don't try to be funny I a kick yo lil ass" he said and I smirked. A few hours later I got ready to go. "I'm out. Goodnight everybody" I said. Me and Paris got in the car. I sighed and started it up then I drove off. "Are you mad?" She asked and deep down inside I was pissed off cause that was a dumb ass question. I ignored her and kept drivin. "I'm sorry" she said and I shrugged. "Me too. For stayin witchu for so long when you ont care bout me or love me" I said. "I do love you" she said with a cracked voice. "You good at that" I said. "What" she asked. "Lyin to me when all you gotta do is keep it real. You know I woulda been there for you. I woulda helped out cause I know you goim through Shit especially since we lost the babies. but you ont even wanna communicate wit me, ain't that's what couples do? Maybe we was never a couple. I was probably just "some nigga" to you but it's aight Paris. You got it" I said and I heard her sniffles and I wanted to say sorry but I said that too many times. "So your done with me for good?" She asked. "I'll think about it" I said. "I'm not a option." She said. "Oh Word? Then if I had to choose between yes or no. Well yea ma, I'm done" I said and she wiped her tears away with her sleeve. The rest of the ride was quiet, hella tension was in the air and her emotions was everywhere. We made it to the house and we got out. I walked inside and sat on the couch. She ran upstairs and I sighed. "Too much for me" i said to myself. I laid back and closed my eyes. I opened my eyes cause I felt her sit on my lap. I stared into her now red eyes and my heart broke once again. I love Paris. But I can't keep doin this. She not letting me help her , she ont wanna be saved. Truth is she ain't the fucked up one, I am. She kissed my lips and I clenched my jaws. "This the last time" I said and she looked at me and nodded with more tears falling from her eyes. I wrapped my arms arouse her waist as she straddled my lap. I kissed her lips and sucked on her bottom one. I rubbed my hand up here shirt and unsnapped her bra. I bit my lip and took her shirt off. I looked at her and more tears fell. I kissed her cheek. "Ima always love you girl" I said and she nodded. I picked her up and carried her upstairs. I gently laid her body down and placed kisses on her stomach. I pulled her pants and her underwear off now lettin her lay there naked. I kissed her thighs and licked the outer part of her lips. I grabbed her hand and locked my fingers with hers. I slowly licked her spot makin her body quiver. She squeezed my hand tighter. She pushed my head back but I went back for more. She grabbed my curls and pushed my head further. I looked at her and she bit her lip. "Stop" she said and that made me go faster which made her gasp. "Baby stop" she whispered. A few seconds later she came on my tongue. I kissed her neck and sucked on it. I kissed her and she sucked on my tongue. I slid my shirt and my pants off. I spread her legs and slowly slid myself into her making her dig her nails into my back. I rested my head on her shoulder and slowly slid in and out of her. I felt her tears hit my shoulder. I kissed her tears away and more fell. I pushed deeper inside of her makin her cry harder. "Want me to stop?" I asked and she shook her head no. "it's Okay" she said through a cracked voice. I nodded and kissed her cheek again. We stared into eachothers eyes as I made love to her. I wiped her tears away and continued. I went deeper and I don't think I was deep enough because she pushed me deeper. I bit my lip and stared into her eyes. neither one of us looked away one time. "I love you" she said through sobs and my face softened from just seein her cry like that, literally breakin down. "I love you too babygirl. Always" I said and I kissed her. I felt myself reaching my peak and I can tell she was about to cumulative too. I went deeper and slower makin her bite her lip. We both came together and I stayed between her legs. I kissed her lips and flipped over. She climbed ontop of me and just laid there and throughout the whole night I felt her tears hit my chest until we both fell asleep.
