| J POV |
i couldn't be more happier for my boy Q, ain't no surprise though cause I always pictured him to get married before all of us, tonight somethin might happen so I want Paris to expect the unexpected. We now sittin at the table at some fancy ass restaurant wit the nastiest food. I picked up my napkin and I put my food in it and I heard paris laugh. I smirked and she looked at me. "Its good" she said. "Shit" I mumbled and she laughed. "I just wanna thank everybody for bein here with me. My mom, my dad, my brothers, uncle's, my kids. All of y'all" Q said. "Shit I even met my lil sister at the club last week" he said and everybody laughed and she laughed and nodded. "Tracy. I wanna thank you for all you did. When my mom's moved to Vegas and left me and my brothers with my dad you the one who stepped up and took over. I love you" he said and she smiled. "I love you" she said. "Yo. I swear I'm suppose to be this solid rock hard ass nigga but I'm being all sentimental. Jessica baby you turned me into a bitch" he said and we all laughed. "Hell yeah" tre said and we laughed again. "But yo like I was tellin Kendrick the other day man it was good to get outta Brooklyn for a while. Get my wife, my kids and my family up outta there man we ain't had fun together like this since I was like 3. I just been observing y'all this whole vacation and could tell how happy y'all was. Shit uncle jawan was happy and That's surprising cause he usually mean as hell" he said and I nodded. "They kept tellin Me not to let Kendrick and Elias hang wit us but shit they deserve to have fun too you know. They bein kids. If you live too fast y'all die too young" Q said and I thought back to when my dad told me that same thing and I swear I ont Want Kendrick to follow in my foot steps. I know he something so much better like no bullshit. "But yeah. Thanks everybody and I appreciate y'all" he said and he sat back down. I cleared my throat and stood up. "Yo" I said and everybody looked at me. "As y'all know. This girl" I said pointin to Paris. "Fine as hell" I said and they laughed. "Nah I love this girl wit everything in me. Yo I know y'all remember I was bad as hell, runnin around with James and them" I said. "Still is" uncle Justin mumbled and I side eyed him. "Anyways" I yelled. "She made me grow up alot. I ont think I could picture myself wit anybody else foreal. So" I said pushing my chair back. I looked at my mom and she smirked and I smirked back and pulled the ring out my pocket and turned her chair towards me. I got on one knee. "He finna do it" cjay yelled. "Paris" I said lookin into her eyes. "I ain't even finna ask. Just marry me" I said and she laughed and everybody else did too. She nodded. "I can't hear you" I said and she laughed. "Yes" she said and I smirked and slid the ring on her finger then I kissed her lips. I looked at my dad and he nodded and smirked. "Congrats bro" my boys said and I smirked. "Thanks" I said. "I have a announcement too" Kendrick said. He stood up and looked at everybody. "Sometimes I feel left out. I feel like I don't belong here. I feel like I shouldn't talk because nobody listens anyways. Londynn was my bestfriend but since she's with elias she doesn't care. So yeah. And my brother promised me he would always be there for me but he's so caught up in life he dont even notice that i feel the way i feel. Q is more of a brother to me then you. Congratulations to everybody on their success and to me for my failure" he said and he mugged my dad , me and londynn before walkin away. "Damn" James mumbled. "I knew how he felt. Just wanted him to tell y'all" Q said. "How you know?" My dad asked. "Lil nigga tell me everything. He told me to keep it a secret so That's what I did" Q said and I nodded and stood up. "I a be back." I said and everybody else continued to eat. I slipped off my suit and put it on the chair then I walked to the bathroom. I seen Kendrick starin at his self in the mirror. I put my back against the door and sighed. "Yo" I said and he ignored me. "Kendrick" I said and he kept ignorin me and it was pissin me off. I grabbed his arm and he pushed me. "Don't act like you care now" he yelled and I stared at him. "I been caring" I said and he laughed with tears in his eyes. "Believe me yo. If you cared you a know about the shit I been goin through" he said. "Tell me Kendrick. So I can be there for you since you feel like I never am " I said he stared at his self in the mirror then he turned towards me. "look" he said and he took off his suit and rolled the sleeve to his shirt up. I stepped closer to him and looked at his arm and seen cut marks on his arm and my face softened. "What happened" I asked. "I cut myself" he said and I looked at him. "Kendrick" I said and he shook his head. "Only one who pays attention to me is Q, mom and Sadies cause she like me. The rest of yall dont care" he said. "I shoulda killed myself when I had the chance." He said. "Fuck is you talkin bout" I asked and tears rolled down his cheek. "I tried to kill myself. I took some pills, they didn't do nothin but knock me out for a few hours" he said and I rubbed my hand over my face. "I feel trapped" he said and my eyes watered up cause I wouldn't know what to do wit out my brother. "I'm sorry man" I said. "Even when you feel like I don't got you, I got you man. 100 percent. Ima always protect you" I said and he licked his lips and nodded. I held out my hand and it took him a while but he dapped me up and I pulled him into a hug and listened to his cries. "Shh it's aight" I said. "I feel trapped man I just wanna be free. I wanna be noticed" he said. This too much shit for him, he only 14. I nodded. "I got you bro" I said and he nodded. "Always" I said. "When I was 12. And you was a kid everybody paid attention to you I felt left out man. I was in my room and felt the urge to just do some shit. I tried to hang myself and mom came in and seen me. I explained to her Why I felt the way I felt. I ain't talk to nobody bout my problems and that was my main problem. Ima check up on you everyday man. I mean everyday" I said and he nodded. "Love you bro" I said. "Love you too man" he said while grabbin his suit. I put my arm around his shoulder and we walked out. "Man niggas gone know you was cryin. eyes red as hell" I said and he laughed. We walked to our table and everybody stared at us. My dad looked at Kendrick and I could tell he felt bad. Kendrick looked at londynn and she was starin at him and he looked away. After a while we all went back to the hotel and to our rooms. Me and Paris laid down and fell asleep.
