| J POV |
"Oh shit. Bruh you good?!" James yelled to me shootin his gun. "Im solid man." I said shootin this nigga in the head. I ont know who these niggas is yo. We was walkin out the mall and niggas start shootin at us. "Man fuck this shit" Q said and he reached in the backseat and grabbed his machine gun. Next thing i know niggas bodies was everywhere. "Pop!" I heard and everything got quiet. I looked down at myself and it was blood leakin from my stomach. I dropped down to my knees holdin my stomach , i start coughin up blood and my eyes start closin. "Come on bruh work wit me" james yelled tryna stand me up. "J come on man" Q yelled. I stared at James and thats the first time I seen my nigga cry. "I-i-im c-coo bruh. J-just get me to the c-car" i said coughin up blood. He literally picked me up off the ground and laid in the backseat. He got in and laid my head on his lap. I felt the car movin. "You a be aight bruh. It aint shit" he said lookin down at me. A tear dropped from my eye cause now i know what my pops and james was talkin about. Im livin too fast , always told me when you live fast you die slow. "Hold on" James said . I grabbed his hand and clutched mine wit his. "Love you man. I swear, i-i-dont think ima m-make it" I said and he laughed with more tears rollin down his cheek. "Shutup man. You gone be good. I told you I ain't gone let you die on me. You can't die on me. Man you the only Nigga that I trust, you always been there for me. So ima be here for you, man you gotta hold on" he said and I nodded and tried my best to keep my eyes open cause I was scared that if I closed em I a never see my family nomore. "Bruh i-i-think" I started to say but I couched up some more blood. "Man Q drive faster" he yelled. "I'M trying man I'M tryin" Q yelled , I heard his voice crack. "What you think man?" He asked me in a cracked voice. "I-i think p-p-paris gone be p-pregnant" I said trying to smile. He laughed and nodded. I thought about all the shit I put people through, and they ain't even deserve the shit. "Let me die man" I said to James. "I ain't got control over yo life bro. But look how long you holdin on man. You obviously here for a reason. Don't say no shit like that, especially to me. Man you my boy. I got you. You aint stable right now but I am so ima be strong for you" he said. "Man Uncle Jawan J dyin" Q yelled into the phone. I felt my eyes closin but then they shot right back open. "Here man" Q said handin James the phone. "He strong unc. He gone be ight. Everytime his eyes shut they Shoot right back open" he said smirkin at me. "J" I heard my dad say on speaker. "Hold on for us." He said in a cracked voice and that made tears roll down my face. "I-im tr-tryin" I said. "Im on my way" he said hangin the phone up. The phone rung and James answered it. He put it on speaker and my eyes closed and I seen nothin but darkness. "Baby" I heard a soft voice say and my eyes shot right back open. It was Paris. "You gotta hold on" she said. "You told me you a never leave. You made all this possible for me don't leave me now" I heard her say. I looked up at James and he was starin down at me. "H-hang the phone up" I told him. "Im tired man" I said in a cracked voice coughin up more blood. My eyes closed and this time I couldn't open em back up. "Look just like yo pops" I heard a voice say. This time I was walkin in a bright ass room. I seen a figure and walked closer to it. When I came close to it I seen a darkskin man standin there. I know I seen him somewhere. "You ont know who I am" he asked and I shook my head no. "Im yo uncle Nezz. Goofy" he said dappin me up. "Uncle nezz? " I asked surprised. "Nice to meet you man" I said and he laughed. "What I say in that video y'all was watchin the other day" he asked and I thought Back to what he said. "Don't be a.... wait where im at?' I asked. "Heaven" he said. "I can't cuss up here man" I said. "True. But mean you remember what I said so cut it out" he said and I nodded. "Nah but as you know. You dead. That hurt my heart too cause you should see how hurt kiara and jawan is. And that girl you with, cryin her lil eyes out." He said and I rubbed my hand over my face. "Paris?" I asked and he nodded. "Man" I said. "J" he said and I looked up. "Word from the big man. If you promise me you gone change yo ways and do better then you can go back" he said. "Give it all up. Drug life , robbin , all that. Man i ont want you to end up how jawan was. ya pops almost died cause this stuff. Same stuff you doin we use to do it. Can you promise me? Not only me but big man" he asked and i nodded. He smirked and hugged me. "I trust you. Look where im at. Same stuff that happened to you happened to me. Do right" he said and i nodded. "Oh yeah here" he said takin off 2 chains he had on. He opened up my hand and put it in the palm of my hand and closed it. "Keep this man. Give it to Jawan and christian. I want them to know you was wit me up here." He said. "What about mariah?" He asked and a lady appeared next to him and grabbed his hand. He looked at her and smirked. "Tell her that her parents love er and we proud. And congrats on the baby." He said. "Hold on" the lady said takin off a ring. She handed it to me and smiled. "Make sure mariah gets this" she said and i smiled and nodded. "Oh yeah J" my uncle nezz said. "Somethin unexpected gone happen. Take it as a blessin or a lesson ight?" He said and i nodded. I walked away and a woman approached me smilin. "J right?" She asked and i nodded. She kissed my cheek. "Thanks for takin care of my baby" she said and i looked at her and noticed how much she look like paris. I nodded and kissed her cheek. "She deserve it" i said walkin away. I walked away from the light and my eyes slowly opened. I looked around at my surroundings and my eyes landed on my dad. "Pops" i said and he looked at me. "Help me sit up" i said and he sat my pillows up and i sat up. I sighed and looked at him. "Im sorry" he said to me. "I love you dad" i said and he looked at me with red eyes. "Love you too man" he said and i grabbed his hand and sat the chain in it from uncle nezz. He looked at it then back at me . "Who this from" he asked. "Uncle Nezz" i said and he smirked. Everybody came in one by one. Im glad my moms left she kept buggin me. "Wassup J-man" my uncle christian said walkin in the room. "Hey unc" i said and he sat down. "Man you ight?" He asked and i sighed and nodded. "I know you seen em" he said smirkin and i smiled. "Yeah he a coo dude. He told me to give you somethin" i said reachin over and grabbin the chain off the stand. I Handed it to him and he looked at it. He smiled and nodded. "Thanks b" he said to his self. Next person that came in was DeQuan and mariah. "Wassup bro" they said to me. "How you feel" DeQuan said. "Feel like I got shot" I said laughing. "Mariah come ere" I said and she walked over to me. "Here" I said handin her the ring. She took it and looked at it. "From ya moms" I whispered and she nodded and a tear dropped. "I know" she said. "You seen my Daddy?" She asked. "Yeah he coo. He said he love you and Congrats on the baby." I said and she smiled. "Damn you seen all them?" DeQuan asked and I nodded. "Damn" he said and Mariah just stared at the ring. "It's aight" I said and she nodded. They left and James walked in. "Wassup bro" I said and he sat down and stares at the floor. "Bruh" I said and he ignored me. "James man im sorry" I said and he shrugged. "It's all good. you here right?" He asked and I nodded. "Coo " he said and I sighed. "Remember I ain't got control over my life James" I said and he nodded. "I ain't mad man im just shocked. All that matters is that you good. I love you bruh" he said and the rest of the time we just talked. Paris came in last and I scooted over so she could lay next to me. She laid her head on my chest and sighed. "Im glad you okay" she said and I kissed her head. "Me too" I said in a raspy voice. It got quiet. "I seen yo mom" I said and she looked up at me. "Really?" She asked and I nodded. "She approached me. Told me thanks for takin care of you. She said she love you and she proud" I said and she smirked. She kissed me and I kissed her back. I laid there thinking bout the last thing uncle nezz said to me. Did that have somethin to wit Paris? I ont know. Hopefully she get pregnant soon.
