01.7.21
12:18 am
I just read an old paragraph that I was writing to E 2 years ago. And I looked at it and laughed. It's almost embarrassing how I would handle this 2 years ago. It's weird to almost see the growth that I've done I guess you could say.
Today I was on the phone with E's mom cause we talk like that lol. And we were talking about planning a trip for the summer. My family and his. I'd love to go somewhere with them, we're thinking about a cruise. The only pro is that we'll be together like 24/7. The only con will be if he finds some girl on the boat. That'll piss me off.
But it's like I need to move on honestly. And I kind of am because I was only jealous of the girls he talks to for a few minutes then it passed. But it will take time. Time to heal and love on. Time to realize that maybe I deserve better. That maybe I'm giving him up I'll finally find someone who's better. A greater love.
Cause that's what I want. I want a most epic love. A true love that makes my heart hurt in all the right places. That makes me more then just happy. I want something real and something that isn't perfect. Something that is worked for and built from the ground up.
Maybe I'm asking for too much from the wrong person. I want a Simon and Daphne type of love (for all my Bridgerton fans).
YOU ARE READING
trying to feel better
Romancethese are all true thoughts and feelings. they belong to me and I've decided to share them with you. in hopes that i will one day feel better. most of these will be about a boy. and the rest will be about me. please be kind.
