06.22.21
2:05 pm
It's a rainy day and it's making me feel sad. It's making me feel lonely. It's making me want one person. Which I know I can't want.
The other night I kind of got upset with myself for allowing everything that's happened between E and I to happen. But now that I think about; we're both adults. We're both horny and have feelings for each other.
I don't want to miss these moments and then later on regret them. And we have made it clear. We are on the same page. We both don't want a relationship. Like I said I don't want a relationship with him but I do want consistency. I want loyalty.
Which is all unfair. And will just make things complicated. What we are right now is good. It's not too complicated. And the feelings are there. I was looking back to like old memories of E and I. And I think the feelings have always been there.
Saturday I was with my best friend and I called him. He asked me when I was going home. And it's like he's never asked before. He's never shown interest in when I'm going home and so I think it's little things like that.
We're just best friends who have feelings for each other, but are extremely scared.
YOU ARE READING
trying to feel better
Romancethese are all true thoughts and feelings. they belong to me and I've decided to share them with you. in hopes that i will one day feel better. most of these will be about a boy. and the rest will be about me. please be kind.
