12.15.20
7:58 pm
I'll let you know right now that this is going to be about E. And maybe you guys are tired of hearing about him, but trust me things are turning.
I really miss him. I haven't seen him in a week in a half. He's sick and I can't see him cause of somebody who got him sick. And we both know the person and it literally makes me so upset that they got him sick. Like all I wanna do is be around him. Like even now in his sickness.
All I wanna do is take care of him and make him feel better. He sent me a funny pic and it was so random. But it made me miss him. It was so random cause his message said "thought you could use a laugh". It was so random but it's like could that mean that I'm kind of on his mind.
Could it be that he's been thinking of me and knows that what he sent would out a smile on my face. I'm like so in love with this boy. And I honestly don't care anymore. I'd never tell him of course but I'm finally accepting my feelings for him.
He's my best friend and I trust him with my life. I'd do anything for him and I know he'd do the same for me. I love him with everything in me. And I mean that in a non romantic and romantic way. Like I literally love him. He's the person I know I can always run to if I need too. I trust him with everything.
And I honestly don't know if he feels the same and yes that scares me. But I'm grown. Like fuck it if he doesn't feel the same. Obviously I'd be hurt as hell. But I'll take it like a big girl.
Nobody ever told me being in love would be this complicated COÑO!!
YOU ARE READING
trying to feel better
Romancethese are all true thoughts and feelings. they belong to me and I've decided to share them with you. in hopes that i will one day feel better. most of these will be about a boy. and the rest will be about me. please be kind.
