trying to feel better

day 372

07.23.21
12:23 pm

I don't want to be the type of person who's extremely cocky, but I have to say I was right. I was right to not be worried about the girl who likes E. He told me himself I'm the one he likes.

I went to see him yesterday because his mom told me he was kind of sad. So I went and we ate food. We just hung out in his room together. I feel like whenever I go to his house I'm always just only in his room. Once I go in there I only walk out to go get food or use the bathroom.

And now I feel like super comfortable just being in his house. We started cuddling and then he just started kissing all up on me. Then we were making out, but I stopped and told him I don't want when we hang out for it to always end up sexual. And he pinky promised it wouldn't be like that.

I told him how important the intimate things we've done are to me. That what we've done means something to me cause he's the first. And he said it was important to him as well. In fact he said that he's had dreams of me. And he's been craving me in that intimate way. He told me he doesn't know what I did to him that has him so attached.

I honestly think it's the love I give him. I believe it's how I treat him and simply how I am with him. I don't think I'm attached, but I do feel the same way he does. And I'm not sure what will happen if we have sex now. I'm not sure if he'll catch more feelings or not.

But this is a prime example of always trusting your intuition. Mine told me not to worry about those other girls and he literally told me he liked me not them. I'm happy. We're happy. This is amazing.