can't shut my heart up

truth

Phoenix POV

P: okay phoenix today's the day

                  I put my orange and black pup play mask in my backpack and put on my hoodie.  Simple black hoodie with the cuffs, laces and hood having the bi pride flag on it and says "she/her" on the back. I know i don't need it but yanno its 2021 i'd like people to know they can say "she/her" without needing to ask anyways. I pack a pure black hoodie so i can wear that with my pup mask while on the sex positive float...no one knows i'ma be on there though...i heard there's a puppy trainer that'll be there...and no not dogs...pups...maybe i could meet them i don't know. I drive up to the town hall and start helping around

S: HEYYYYY NIX

                I turn around and see Sam jogging up to me

S: finally your here! ya don't KNOW how annoying some people are around here...also *sigh* the mayor called me Samantha again

Sam POV

P: oh sammy that's sucks i'm sure she didn't know how you feel

              Oh she has no clue...i trust nix and all but i haven't told her yet that...i may never change my body but...i'm not a her. Took awhile to come to terms with it but i...i'm non-binary. The back of my shirt, which i'm wearing a jacket over, says "they/them"

S: *deep breath* speaking of which  um nix i have something to tell you

P: sure what is it?

             I lead her to my car so we can sit in private as i take off my jacket. My shirt was the demisexual flag but going down my shirt not across, so like if you hang the flag 

P: oh sammmmmy thats great!

S: yeah i figured maybe...maybe one day i'll find the right person...but i'd have to trust them SO much...also uh...yanno how i only like going by sam?

P: yeah?

                 thats because since about a couple months after i got made...i noticed it's just to...fem for me i never liked it but i find sam perfect

S: *gulp* look i know it'll be hard for everyone m-maybe and i hope...i hope you understand nix...i'mnotagirl-

P: hm? i'm sorry sammy you spoke to fast

S: I'm not a girl...f-for sure not a boy...i'm...nix i'm non-binary...they/them pronouns...i...i...*tears up*

P: wait...hey hey sammy no its okay

                She pulls me into a hug and i cry into her shoulder...shes not mad? or confused or anything?-

P: shhhh sammy hey its okay...sure it's kinda a surprise but i'll get used to it...sammy i love you, your my best friend of COURSE i'll respect your pronouns i PROMISE i will

S: t-thanks nix s-sorry i'm being a huge pussy about it

P: its okay sammy...i'm glad you told me...i'm glad you trust me enough...are you gonna come out publicly?

S: mhm

P: so i'm the first to know?

S: y-yeah

P: aw thanks for telling me first sam

S: y-yeah...i t-trust you

P: it means a lot...don't worry i'm sure people'll accept you yanno how woke our town is

S: i k-know but its still scary

P: you'll be okay...come on we have work to do

S: y-yeah...what float are you at anyways?

             She pauses and thinks for a minute

P: uh its a surprise 

S: kay...*sigh* okay okay i'ma leave the jacket here...i...yeah lets go we got stuff to do i gotta help with the setting up 

P: alright

                 We get out of my car and walk back to town hall. She quickly hugs me and starts to walk away

S: nix

P: yes?

S: thanks...thanks so much 

P: *chuckle* no problem sammy

              She jogs away to the further floats and i go the butterfly boutique where the costumes for the performers are being held like i was told...it feels so good to finally have it off my chest...to finally just be me