can't shut my heart up

letting go

Gemma POV

G: you d-didn't do anything do d-deserve that...i j-just lost it for a w-while a-and didn't seem to care who got hurt because of how h-hurt i was...and please p-please i DON'T want you thinking EVER that that was o-okay and p-people can treat you like t-that...you mean so m-much more to me then you e-even know...i'm s-so fucking sorry...i l-love you s-so much

              She stops glitching and cups my face pulling me into a kiss. She leans back and i get up to follow her fall. She falls back on the bed while we kiss...it's soft and sweet just like she always does. I pull away

G: i don't d-deserve you 

S: g-gemma...me of a-all people understand what it's like to be a unstable and l-lose it...i...i really did think i d-did something-

G: you didn't shatter a-all you ever did was be the b-best thing to ever happen to me...i-i'm so sorry- 

S: it's o-okay...i'd be willing to do it again if yo-

G: NO!....n-never...i remember how d-drained you l-looked...i'll never let that happen again-   

              She pulls me into another kiss and wipes my tears

S: ...thank you

Daffodil POV 

Daff: ...daisy you can...you can open the door i wanna talk

D: *opens door*...well?

                I sit on her bed and she hides her sketch book...i catch sight a nude drawing of jenna before she fully hides it

Daff: ...you...you really do love her don't you?

D: ...more then...anything

Daff: *sigh* ...she's...she seems like a nice person

D: you have no idea

                I've been thinking...they're all right...i have to accept that my sisters aren't children and they deserve to live their lives...alright

Daff: you're ungrounded...and...you may go to her

D: *gasp*

Daff: i'm sorry...i just wanted to make sure i knew you were saf-

               She hugs me hard

D: t-thank you so much big sis...t-thank you

Daff: oh daisy...can you forgive me?

D: of course...i know you don't mean to come off...possessive 

Daff: *sigh* now go on

               She pulls away and gives me this wide smile. She runs out

Daff: OH AND BE BACK BEFOR-

D: *sigh*...before dinner i know-

Daff: ...be back...before eleven at the least

D: pm?

Daff: *chuckle* yes yes...go love her

D: oh my God thank you daff

               With that she runs out, i hear the car start and drive away...now for violet. I walk thru their shared bathroom and knock on her door

V: h-hm?

Daff: may i come in?

V: yes of course 

               I walk in and see her watching the news...biting her nails

Daff: ...i'm sorry

V: a-about?

Daff: you're...you don't have to tell me where you were or where you're going...you're not grounded anymore i'm so sorry

V: i....y-you mean it? *tears up* y-you actually mean it?

                She gets up and hugs me

Daff: yes i mean it...you may be the youngest but...you're not...you don't deserve to be treated like it...we're all adults here

V: t-thank y-you so m-much...i l-love you s-so much big sis

                 I tilt my had up...i don't want my makeup to mess up

Maxine POV

                  I just don't know how to cover for her. I decide to take a shower normally that helps me think...

M: *sigh* God what's wrong with m-me?

~~~flashback~~~

I: d-do you...m-mean that-

M: I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE DAMN IT!...*gulp* look DON'T talk to anyone about this for all i k-know...look just DON'T okay...i have to go

                 I walk out and slam the door without thinking

~~~end of flashback~~~

            I let the water run down every inch of me

M: ...AHHHHHHHHHH WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING SCREW UP DAMN IT!?! 

           I put both hands on the wall and lean forward getting my head out of the water for a second...i...i love her right? it's not like a power or anything right? then why am i so scared of her?...i've never been this scared of anything...but the idea of her video...and...i just don't know