can't shut my heart up

hunger for disaster

Ruby POV

           I feel my sharp horns... i see my tail...everything's out...i lost it again...and now i hurt my only friend. Shes shaking in pain on the ground with tears running down her cheeks. I crawl over to her and try to think of what to do...i have to do something i have to i have to

V: y-you're not a monster-

R: i-i'm so sorry violet i d-didn't mean to i'm sorry the m-monster came out i...i'm sorry i'ma-

V: no n-no you're n-not...i...*whispers* i forgive y-you

R: *quiet gasp*

              I gently pick her up and she winces...what do i do. i've never had to heal someone before i don't know how...i only know how to destroy things. I lay her on my bed on her side and slowly take off her shirt...oh God there's so much blood which normally i enjoy but...i don't want her hurt

V: *wince*

R: uh...u-uh

              I sit her up and she leans onto my chest while crying...i put my hands on her back 

V: AHHHH

R: SHIT! sorry!

                I flinch my hands off and my wings shoot out causing things to crash

R: i...i t-think i can...*tears up again* i w-wanna heal you...i have to get you to er-

V: *pant* n-no

R: w-what?

V: n-no they'll p-put you in jail a-again...it'll h-heal

R: no what!?! no i have to-

V: p-promise me you won't 

R: i-

V: don't t-take me

R: *gulp*...o-okay okay i-i'll uh i'll figure this out i'll get bandages i-

V: p-please...it's so cold

                    I gently wrap my arms and wing around her...i put my head on hers and start to cry...i don't want to hurt anyone anymore...but i can't help it...i have a hunger for disaster. My tears fall onto her back and i see a red glow come from it when it lands...i look at it shocked...it...hurt back's healing

V: *sigh*...i knew you c-could heal...i k-knew it

                    After a while her entire back is healed...i get off the bed and retract my wings and tail. I fall to my knees feeling light headed. She slowly walks to me...i look down confused...i have soi many thoughts rushing through my head... she holds my horns with her hands and tilts them back making me look up 

V: you're not a monster...we both just saw that you c-can fix what you break...you just need help learning how

R: y-yeah i a-am and i c-can't fucking h-help it i-i'm such-...i'm s-so-

                She pulls me into a hug again

V: shhh shhh it's alright...shhhh it'll be alright...i'm your friend...i'll stick with you thru this...every step of the way...i promise

~~~time skip~~~

Maxine POV

                I pull up to Iris's place around seven after i stopped by my motel and heard moaning from the other room...anyways...okay so, so far i learned ruby and violet might know something but i'm too scared to ask...i just don't know how i'm going to do this

M: *sigh* iris i'm here

I: door's open!

             I walk in and put my mini backpack on her coat rack. I see her happily humming shut me up and washing a tray...she's carefree...almost like nothing happened

M: so uh i...i think if anything Ruby might no some-

I: oh don't worry about it hun...you said you wanted to take your mind off things

M: *sigh* yeah you're right

                ...hun?...maybe she's just trying to take my mind off things...yanno what? fuck it...i know iris...unstable or not, criminal or not...i trust her-

I: made some cookies. want some?

M: oh please you make the best fucking ones of COURSE i do iris

I: great

                  I sits at her table and she puts a plate of cookies in front of me. She massages my shoulders

I: you're so tense babe

M: *sigh* yeah