can't shut my heart up

choices

~~time skip~~

Phoenix POV

                  I know they're leaving the door unlocked and stuff but i'm worried...this isn't the first time Sam's wanted to be left alone but not...in her cell. Rose closes the door

P: sammy...

S: hey...nix i'll be fine i'm not even in for anything come on yanno that

P: then why do you wanna-

S: i already told you what happened...i just wanna be really fucking alone right now okay?

P: okay

S: hey...*whispers* you said you have a date don't ya?

P: well y-yeah

S: well then for me...try to make it count ight?

P: okay sammy

                    I...I can't wrap my head around it fully i feel they're leaving things out i mean...why would Sam be in bed with Allie in the first place...sure they said they couldn't bring themselves to...yanno but still they LET allie kiss her and apparently allie took care of herself...but also maddie was allie's girlfriend...i'm so confused...why they would do it...unless-

~~~flashback~~~

S: i don't know i just feel like i want something more with maddie and allie

P: well your becoming friends-

S: nah i don't feel like that's it...i just don't like get it

~~~end of flashback~~~

P: *gasp* they don't just LIKE them...they might have stronger feelings...and i can't help them...sam needs to figure this out alone as much as it sucks

G: hello phoenix

P: oh uh hey gabrielle

G: *sigh*...you know i didn't think when i said i'd do anything for you thre-...y-you two that *chuckle* sam would ask for something like that but i keep my word

P: yeah...look i'd love to stay and chat like old times but i have a semi-blind date 

G: i understand i have work to get back to anyways...goodbye for now

P: *sigh* yeah

~~~time skip~~~

Daine POV

               Its about 1pm and Adie walks thru the front door...i kinda said she could move in with me...makes the place less boring anyways...i love her and all...i kinda wish she wasn't a porn star but hey i don't mind

A: hey princess

D: hey pup...so uh...i'm guess last night...yanno

A: yeah i had a shoot sorry i forget to tell you i normally never had someone to like tell anyways

D: *sigh* was it...good?

A: well i mean yeah i guess like...oh wait daine

                  She must've noticed i'm uncomfy...i promised i'd get used to it and i'm trying its just hard-

A: hey diane sure it was good its sex lets be honest if someone can hit the g spot right its okay but...he went hard and they also never really care about me after like you do...there  was no aftercare...i mean it when i say no one makes me feel like you do

D: thanks adie...

A: hey...look i can like stop doin-

D: no its your job you...like it

A: well i like pole dancing and stripping the shoots is more...that's more my boss telling me what to do-

D: boss? i thought you said you didn't have a boss

A: oh shit...i...look he don't t-treat me bad or anything-

D: okay so he for sure does baby...did he give you a choice to do the shoot?

A: w-well...i...uh...ummm-

Adie POV

                    I can't let her worry...but shes giving me that look...no he didn't its my JOB i don't get a choice really...i should but...it's complicated 

D: adie...DID you get a choice-

A: NO OKAY I NEVER GET A CHOICE WHEN IT C-COMES TO SHOOTS! ITS MY JOB DIANE YOU WOULDN'T GET IT! IF IT WASN'T FOR HIM I WOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE BECAUSE HE COULD'VE SAID NO BUT NO HE DIDN'T AND KNOW I'M HERE AND I M-MET...i met y-you *tears up* b-but this is my job damn it...i wish the shoots weren't part of it you have no idea what i'v been thru okay?

D: aw baby come ere

A: i...i n-never get a fucking choice