can't shut my heart up

my lips are sealed

Maxine POV

             Sam puts a mirror down in front of me while i try to figure out why my mouth hurts like hell

S: you sure your ready?

M: mhm

              They raise it and i jump back in my bed. is that me? I see my lips...sewn shut with red thread with its needle hanging on the right side. I bring my fingers up to it and touch it instantly moving my hand back in pain. What happened to me? i start crying which i normally NEVER do in front of this many people-

M: *whimper*

Mad: dont worry Max we're GOING to get iris and make her fix this...and then pay

M: *in writing* where is she? is she ok? y do u need her?

Mad: max why the FUCK DO YOU CARE ABOUT HER-

S: CHILL...look Max iris she um...*sigh* show her

               They turn on the tv to show the camera footage in her living room. All the "unstable" people get one in there house somewhere. I can see into the kitchen where we were talking. She hands me the drink that i remember and i start to cough and gag. Shes just smiling at me...the look in her eyes its like shes not even there. I fall to the ground and she takes me to the sofa. I watch in horror as she stabs the needle into my skin and starts roughly pulling and pushing it into my now raw, red and very bloody skin. She'd lick her fingers or needle once in a while to clean them. After she finishes i get put onto a chair and my hands tightly tied behind it. I'm just there leaning forward. She watches me bleed out with this unsettling smile on her face. She then gets up and kisses me. I watch her give me a hickey and then after a while she shakes her head and looks at me. She starts...crying. She knows what she did. She writes a letter, turns of the lights and leaves me there alone

Sam POV

M: *on nate pad* where is she?

S: we dont know. There we're tire tracks that went to the desert where no houses are yet but then they dispersed

M: i need to find her

Mad: bull shit your not going NEAR her

M: pls shes scared. she didnt mean it ik she didnt

                  Look i get it really i wouldn't wanna believe it if i heard Nix burned down a building...but we all know she DID and meant it and this can't be very different

S: Max of course she MEANT it she did THAT to you

M: it's not like she's the only unstable she just SO HAPPENS to have done one of the worse 

Mad: exactly why we cant let you go Maxxie 

M: pls i can fix this but it has to be me PLS

Mad: *sigh*...we'll talk about it later

Gabrielle POV

                    I leave the hospital with Rose and Alanis...we pull up to town hall...i remember the date

Gab: i...*gulp* you two g-go ahead i have to do something

R: oh *sigh* i'm sorry ma'am i forgot 

Alan: forgot what? did i miss something?

Gab: no no...you never met her-

Alan: oh that Astra girl?

Gab: *sigh* yes

R: w-well i better go over files in your office

                    Alanis looks back and watches Rose hurry to the office...then she looks back at me. I fix my makeup in the mirror in the car. As i'm driving away i hear the door open and see Alanis sit on the passenger seat 

Gab: *gasp* YOU CAN'T JUST HOP INTO A MOVING CAR-

Alan: actually there isn't a law for that

Gab: w-well...still

                     She buckles up and i look at her confused...what is she doing?

Alan: look Rose is...i kinda wanna maybe learn more about her but...you're my pal...whatever this is is probs important to you and i'm willing to be there for you

                      She may be rude sometimes but...she's sweet

Gab: *sigh*...thank you

Alan: yeah yeah 

                        ...it's the two year anniversary to when Astra asked me...to marry her...she didn't make it to the wedding