can't shut my heart up

vine

TW//suicide attempt

             hello yes this may not be very heavy but i am gonna put a warning on it so...ye

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Maxine POV

        I drove up to Jade's place to hang. I didn't call to tell her but i'm sure she wont mind. Man this place gives me the creeps mostly just Shatter and Ruby's places. I park my cycle and knock on the door...no answer.

M: ight im just coming in...hey Jade...Jade? yo where you at?

             Shes not anywhere she'd normally be at then i hear something like...crying.

M: hey Jade? come on where are ya?

            I follow the sound to her bathroom door. It has thorny vines around the handle...i hear crying on the other side

M: h-hey Jade? bud? y-ya okay?

*thud*

M: J-jade? yo jade! 

          SHIT that came from in there. I grab my pocket knife and start cutting the vines but they just grow back.

M: okay J-Jade come on please open the door! call off t-the vines

             There's no answer SHIT. I decide fuck the handle, I stick the knife where the lock would be and kick the door as hard as i can. It opens and i see Jade leaning on the wall while sitting on the ground. Shes holding a razor to her wrist. I see trails of blood coming from it and adding to a puddle under her.

M: hey hey hey no um fuck Jade stop

               She just looks at me then brings the razor down again. FUCK. I jolt down and grab her unhurt wrist to stop her.

J: m-max p-please j-just let me d-d-die

M: no Jade i can't

                  I grab the razor and chuck it into the toilet. Before i can flush a vine grabs my arm. I look back and she her looking at me. She has mascara running down her cheeks, heavy ass eye shadow meaning even though its obvious shes clearly not okay and her eyes are slightly glowing green. She gets a vine to give to the razor and i grab it with my other arm.

M: hey NO Jade look at me

                     She looks up at me...shes pale fuck. okay okay think i have no power here but God DAMN IT i need some right now i cant let her.

M: j-jade come on p-please d-don't

J: w-why? 

M: c-cus...c-cus please jade w-whatever it is this isnt gonna f-fix it

                 I see her arm bleeding out from the several cuts. I'v gotta help her

J: b-but its gonna s-stop it-

M: no hey jade please no *tears up* d-dont do it come on we can talk about it

               She pauses and looks at me...her eyes start to change back.

M: please jade listen i c-can help but please you have to let me

J: h-how?

M: y-you have to call off the vines jade i promise i can g-get you help. just please listen to what i say carefully 

             I see her starting to have problems breathing FUCK.

J: *gulp* o-....okay

               She weakly snaps and all the vines fade away. I run to her, flush the razor and get my shirt off. I put it to her arm to soak to blood. She starts crying more.

M: hey hey bud look at me your gonna be okay *dials 911*

J: i-i'm s...sorry 

M: no jade shhh its fine you dont need to be sorry just please stay with me okay? just stay with me 

               I hold her to my chest while soaking up the what seems to be endless supply of blood her arms spilling. Shes cold. I hear the front door burst open and see paramedics arrive. They get something on her arm and rush to er. I follow em in my cycle as fast as it can go.

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