Hope POV
I decided to bring Lexi over and watch a movie. I hand Lexi a ipad so she could type to talk to me. She was kinda outta breath cus she chose to run here saying she needed to work out. I just wanted to sleep in my own bed not her guest one...she asked is she could smoke and i mean...sure its not a problem
H: so um lexi if you dont mind me asking...um have you and shatter ever fought?
L: *in typing* i mean like...yeah duh were room mates it was kinda bound to happen
H: what was your worst one?
L:...
was that not okay to ask? whats going on?
L: *typing* purse pls i need my purse
she was looking panicky and her eyes were flashing. Her breathing was kinda fast...
L: *typing* pls
H: oh r-right
I get up and look around and grab it. I hear her breathing going fast.
H: hey you okay?-
L: i- *breathing hitches*
H: shit hey you okay?! *hands bag*
She starts looking thru it and then stops while putting a hand on her chest...OKAY SHIT WAIT THIS IS A ASTHMA ATTACK ISNT IT? SHE HAS ASTHMA? AND SHE SMOKES? not the time to ask i look for a inhaler or something in her purse when i hear Faith walk in...Lexi doenst HAVE one-
F: hey hope, whats sh-
H: do we have a inhaler?
F: in the first aid-
I run over grab it and run back to Lexi whos looking pale. I hand it to her, well she kinda rips it from my hand and she takes a hit
L: *GASP*
After a while she starts to calm down.
F: i-is she okay?
H: i think so...here can you throw these out? *hands weed*
F: yeah of course
H: okay um WHAT THE FUCK?
Lexi gave me a confused and angry look.
H: YOU HAVE ASTHMA? AND NEVER TOLD ME ONE AND TWO IF YOU HAVE IT WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SMOKE?
L: c-cUS IM AN ADULT? YOU NOT My mOM
Her voice was cracking because its not fully healed. She uses her inhaler again
L: *GASP*
H: but you cant SMOKE dude what if we didnt have a inhaler you COULDVE DIED FOR FUCKS SAKE-
L: *huff*
She crosses her arms and looks away...thats when i notice...is she...
H: hey lexi are you-
L: *sniff* im vine
H: are you crying?-
L: I SAID IM FINE
H: ...faith could you leave the room?
F: sure
H: lexi i...im sorry your right your an adult...i just...wait a minute
That must be why she passed out so fast when Ruby was burning her throat...maybe thats why she hates when people hurt her nose too
H: thats it isnt it? you...you think of asthma as something holding you back
L: *gulp* w-why the hell do you care
H: cause i don't wanna see yous struggle to BREATH lexi...yanno its common really like its not a big deal
I go to grab her hand and she yanks hers away
L: y-you dont get it
H: you shouldnt talk lex
L: i cant do what the fuck i want...i j-just...people look at mean and think "oh she could beat a bitch" and t-theyre right but...if they knew all they had to do was get my breathing up just high enough...t-that that could...that i could...ruby knew she could kill me...she knew its my weakness...i-if it wasnt for you and the others i wouldve easily...*starts crying*
Iv never seen her like this...over something she cant control? id think itd take way more to make her cry. I carefully pull her into a hug...she doesn't hug back...she just cries into my shoulder
L: i-i'm sorry i j-just was p-pissed you s-saw me like t-that not able t-to defend m-myself i was w-weak i d-didn't wanna be seen as a c-coward s-she called me a d-damn cowar-
H: hey calm your breathing down you could get another attack...and besides i thought the fact you held your ground near her was strong enough
After a while she calms down and pulls away looking down.
H: hey...its alright i wont tell anyone okay? promise
L: *typing* thanks...um...about your offer...
what offer...
L: *typing* a date wouldnt be that bad
H: REALLY?
L: yeah... also t-thanks for...yanno *points to inhaler* not letting me die i guess
YOU ARE READING
can't shut my heart up
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