can't shut my heart up

now what?

Phoenix POV

                   I walk out my front door and see Sam running into their place...wait...they were crying! I run up and jiggle the door knob...locked. I grab my key and open the door

P: sammy? hey i know your in here whats wrong? i saw you cry...crying

*CRASH*

S: W-WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME DAMN IT!?!

               That came from her bed room! I run in and see...shes unstable! Their eye shadow is almost a pitch black, eyes glowing gold and they're punching the walls!

P: hey hey sammy come on calm down what is it?-

S: L-LEAVE ME ALONE I D-DON'T WANNA TALK AHHHH

                  They fall to their knees and slam their head onto the ground! I quickly run behind them and grab their shoulders hard to get them to stop. I hug them and they dig their nails hard into my arms...i start to bleed but i stay

P: s-sammy listen okay? listen to my voice p-please! y-your okay you just n-need to calm down please-

                   They get up and back up into a wall really hard slamming me onto it. I push them off as a reflex and they pin me to the ground hard, turn my around on it and start pressing their foot onto the side of my head hard!

P: s-sammy come on i know your in there P-PLEASE STOP

S: *heavy breathing*

                   Tears start to drip down my cheeks from the pain

P: S-SAM F-FOCUS PLEASE!

S: I'm feeling homicidal~ 

                     The pain starts to get unbearable i feel like just a lil more and she'll crush my head like a grape

P: S-SAMMY PLEASE I...I...P-PLEASE IT HURTS 

                     They stop but keeps their foot exactly where it was

P: *whimper* p-please....s-stop i k-know it's not y-your fault just p-please i-it hurts

                     They pull away and i quickly get up...they're just...standing there

P: s-sammy?

S: i...i...n-nix?

P: *sigh* oh thank God y-your okay

                   They lean forward to fall and quickly slide on my knees and catch them. They start crying into my shoulder

S: i-i'm s-sorry i'm s-so s-sorry

P: i-it's...it's okay-

                     They hug me hard and start sobbing 

P: shhhh your okay sammy...y-your okay...shhh

                      I help them up and get them to their sofa. They sit down and put their head into their hands...i'v never seen them crying like this...in fact the only time i'v seen them cry close to this hard was when we heard about astra. I sit next to them and rub their back

P: sammy what's wrong-

S: i-is your h-head okay?

P: sammy im fine...what happene-

S: i d-didn't m-mean to i j-just lost control i-

P: no not that sam...what...who...what happened to get you like this?

S: i...i...*whimper* i d-didn't...s-she was just so p-perfect...I D-DON'T K-KNOW I JUST...SHE...I D-DIDN'T MEAN-

P: hey hey shhhh calm down you'll get all worked up again okay?...tell me everything just...slower okay?...come on remember the breathing exercise  

Karen POV

              I start getting an early lunch ready with Harley when Gemma walks in and asks us something

G: hey guys...wheres uh...wheres barbz?

H: hey that's a good OW FUCK!

K: you okay?

H: ughhh i'm fine just cut myself with the knife...again anyway uh i don't know i haven't...ugh hold on

                 She start sucking on her index finger while looking for the first aid kit

K: i don't really know...i'm sure she's fine though

G: nah i know but like...i wonder...hmm-

*ring*

K: oh its my phone hold that thought!...*picks up* hello?

Daff: heyyy karen

K: oh hey daff!

Daff: i was wondering since we have off today and its just such a pretty day...i was wondering if you'd want to maybe come to the fair? its just all my sisters have nothing to do and of course i'd go with them but...it gets boring being the oldest sometimes

K: *chuckle* consider it a date!

Daff: w-what?-

K:...well kinda anyways...yeah that'd be great i'ma just have lunch then we can meet up!

              I hang up and feel butterflies in my stomach...just thinking about hanging out with her its just fun...she's real nice to hang with when given the time-

H: *gasp* oh my God...

G: i can't believe it-

K: what? what's with you two?

G: your blushing...oh

H: my 

G+H: GOOOOODDDD YOU HAVE A CRUSH!

K: W-WHAT N-NO DON'T BE STUPID

H: YOU LIKE FOR SURE DOOOO

G: and on DAFF!?! AHAHAHAA

K: S-SHUT UP YOU TWO-