can't shut my heart up

just another night

Shatter POV

                Did i do something? Oh my God what did i do? i tried i really did i-

L: hey earth to shatter...also hey come on breath you're fine you're okay

S: *sniff* s̷̢̨̨̛̳̗̠̹̜͈͔̟̲͕̱̝̊͐̄̾́̒̅̆͂̽̓-̴̢̳̱͔̣͇͙̭̠̤̍̃̈̿̐̇̔̈́͋ş̵̣̣̳͖̀͊̒̂͂͋͒́ö̸̢̢̹̮͕͈̭̳̳̻͈̼̳̦́̆́́͊͊́́͂̀͠ͅr̴̟̳̓̔̀͛̾r̶̛̬̬͉̣̈́̽͂̒͒̾̿̈́̂̑̀͘͜͝͝y̸̧̧̦̹̺̝̱͓̳̝̰̽̐̔̍́̒͝͝

L: we're home 

S: i̵̹͋͐̈́ ̴̟͙̦̲͇̯̩͉͙̠̳̻́̆̌̒̿͂͐̄͠͝ͅḑ̵̨̡̗̲͇͇̫͖̊̀̕͠-̶̛̭͉͒̒͜d̸̨̰̫̙̺̠͈̻̥̟̠͝ȍ̷̢̨̢̢̼͇̪͓̥̜̹̦͇̌ǹ̶̨̢̖̦̘̣̣̼͕̐̽͊͑̇́̌'̵̣̕͠͝͝t̶̛͔̠͍͒̌̀͊͒͋̔̌̈̓̚͝ ̴̞̲͕̥͕̲̲̣̪͋͑ͅt̵̨̛̪̗̝͍͎̜̰̺̺̺͙͖͋̔̇̅̏̈́͆̏̾̌͠͝͝h̸͈̯̳̿͋͆̀̆́͌͘̚͝í̸̡̙̦͓͔̪̘̣̮̻̱̺͚̖̔͗͛̉̽̂̉͌̏͘͝ņ̵̧̧̖̤͚̙͓̳̦̩̜͙̤͌̌͑͊̓͂͆̈́͜k̸̛̥͗̐̏͋͗̀͐͘̕͠͝ ̴̛͍̩̜̠̳͂͌͑͒̉́͗̕͜ï̵̧̨̫̲͚̼͖̬͎̝̮̻͖ ̷̢̹̼̝̮̦͖̓̚͜͠ͅc̶̛͔̲̪̭̫̹̥͉̤͓̭̳̏̓͐̾̏̀̔̏̅̌͊͘-̵̨͂͊͆̂̆́̎͒͗́͆c̶͎̜̲͍̞̥̱͖̝͓̘̭͊͘ͅa̸̰̯̜̗̲͑̽̀͗̈͂͆̎̓̀͠͝ṋ̸̭̱̣͉͚̼̒͐͑̏̈͂̍̀̾̾̓̔̇͆͜͜͝ͅ ̶̡̡̛̭̯̣͇͔̗̩̟̬͒̌̑͐̐̃͑͝w̷̞͓̓͋͆̈́͑͐̿͌͝ȃ̶͍̬͉͉̣̹͇̯̣͚̌̆̒͜͝l̸̡̛̛̾̑̀̈̆̈́͋͛̃̕k̴̘̼̫̤̗͖̤̱̣̓̎̋͆

L: it's fine 

                 She open's my door and carries me in, puts me on the sofa and opens the il tab on my wrist to get the plug...wait i don't wanna be left alone unable to do anything with these thoughts-

S: l̸͎͖͇̭͚̩̽̃̈́̚ͅ-̴̡̨̡̥̰͍̠̯̪͓̓̍͜ļ̵̫̹̗̤̥͙̝͛̕e̸̢͕̞̬͓̤̯͕͚̪̦͋̍̀͋̃̂̔̓̕x̷̧̛̠̼̰͎̳͔̟̀̍̋̒͋͆̃̐̆͊͘̚į̸̧͍͙͓̘̯̙̝̭̙̹̀̓̾̋̎͊͛̄̌̿͘͜͠e̴͇̭̯̝̾̔̆̃͛̕͝ ̷͖̬͈͈͇̈́̂́̀̓̉̕̚p̸̧̪͖̮͚̪̹̞͍̻̰͓̎̊͜ͅl̷̨̡̖̬͔̼̩̿̌̍͒̃͑̈́́̈́̕̚é̴̛̙̞̦̫͚̻͈̥̳̭̼͚̬̿́́̇̉͘̕͝͝͝a̵̡̙̭̜̘̗̪̹̳͐͊́̿͐̏̐͂̀ͅs̴̬̳͕͉̺͉̭͖̮̮̯̣͒́̔̓̈́́̈́̓̌̾̿̾̋͘͜e̶͔̪̰̼͕̳̒̒́͋͆̉̎̿̒̊̎̈́͝ ̷̡̤͇̠̰͖̝̩͒̈́̓͝͝w̶̤̝̭̭̳͎͕̜͓̞͖̥̪̣̓̆̽͒̾̎̃̈̐̏̏́̕ä̶̧͖̰̗̺͓͕̰́i̵̤̰̼̞̬͇̬̹̱͂̉̽͂͗̚͘͜ẗ̶͔̺̪̹͙̖̭̗̙̩͓̤́̆̅͊̿̂̽̃̒͘͜͝-̶̡̘̱̱̬͉̯̰̩̲̩̌̀͋̍̔͒̀̈ͅ

                  She plugs me in and everything goes dark

Lexie POV

                 I plug her in and call Hope

H: buttercup! you okay? how's shatter? she chill?-

L: hey hey hey i'm fine pudding...shatter just kinda over worked herself is all...

                   I look over to Shatter and see tears running down her cheeks...but she's asleep

L: a-anyways...sorry i should stay with Shatter i...yanno 

H: i totally understand lex

L: thanks hope

H: and about earlier at the bar...yanno before we drove to the store...yanno you don't have to have sex like i mean sure it'd be great but we don't need to

L: thanks hope i just *gulp* ...we'll talk about it later

H: yeah...anyways you go

L: yeah

H: bye love you

L: love ya *hangs up* ight now what's up with shatter? 

                     I kneel down in front of her and wipe her tears...poor shatter's always had this thing where she always thinks she's the problem...i think she'll be okay though. I walk up to my room...i'm just...i know it's stupid but i'm kinda just scared. What if Hope ends up leaving me? I just don't know of...i wanna lose my virginity...what if we fall apart?

 Diane POV

              I'm stocking the cigars at my shop when someone walks in. I walk behind the counter and they walk up

D: ...so pay same as before?

P: just uh another pill i have condoms at...yanno

D: dude you don't need to be so secretive about it like i get it

              He's always so shy when he walks in here like damn we have on the sign that we sell condoms and stuff. But hey he's modest i guess

D: here ya go

P: thanks 

             He pays and walks out...trix is kinda lucky...i remember the size condoms he bought a while back...XL like damn. It's almost ten i better close this place ain't to busy on weekdays. I lock up and drive home...i see adie on the sofa 

D: hey pup

A: oh hey princess

             She slowly walks up to me and hugs me

D: you okay?

A: *shrugs*

            She's been like this since she quit...i feel kinda bad

D: look i know you think you need that job...but you have a only fans, your a stripper heck you leaving hurt him more you were his best actor...you'll figure it out

A: *sigh* i know i just...he's the one that got people to...yanno

D: hey...i'm here right? hows about i be your partner for shoots?

A: r-really? i thought-

D: ...i'd rather not be since like that but...for you? i can like where masks or something...i've been thinking about it-

             She kisses me hard and pushes me onto the door. She pulls away...hey i want more

A: thank you...s-so much

D: yeah~

             She notices and tugs on the collar of my shirt. I cock an eyebrow

A: how's about we do a lil behind the sheets right now?~

D: i thought you'd never ask~

Harley POV

               I change into a large shirt irene gave me for pjs. I took off my pants and put em next to my purse then sit on the sofa. I know its rude but i man spread...i had a long day if i'm being honest. Irene stumbles to me and kneels on the floor in front of me

I: heeyyy~

H: uh...hi aha